happiness

承诺是用来守候的。

2012-02-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

承诺（chéng nuò）：人与人之间，一个人对另一个人所说的具有一定憧憬的话，一般是可以实现的。

一般是可以实现的事情儿；然而有些人却轻易的把承诺说出口而无法履行。
如果从一开始，您就不打算履行您所允诺的承诺，那么请您收回您的话语。
话，说得再好听终久是一场美丽的谎言；要的不过是行动上而不是出张口。

不要，打肿脸皮充胖子，因为您只会落得大家的话柄而已。难堪与否，全是您造成的。

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最近常挂在口边的口头禅：“如果，你可以过得了你良心的那一关，那你尽管如此吧。”

很抱歉，因为无法突破自己的良心、所以我甘愿背负起所谓您们的承诺。

2011年的最后一天

2011-12-31T02:51:00.002+08:00

2011年的最后一天.. 距离2012年1月1号还有21个小时？大概吧。

嗯... 最后一天到底该怎样过呢？
上午上个网、下午烫个衣服准备明天的敬茶仪式、傍晚过去外婆家帮忙、晚上守着电脑看着直播...
看上去真的好像很无趣呢... TuT 我的乐趣到底去了哪里？谁要是送我一座一座的书籍，我应该就能很轻易的找到我的乐趣了吧。（我发现，小说里头的世界偶尔真的很美好）

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今年过得有点安静呢。没有以往的烤肉派对、没有外婆的米粉、没有外婆的............好多好多东西呢。我想外婆了。T0T
什么时候可以再次吃到那些好吃的、听到那些关心的问候、挽着手走在夕阳走在陌生的街头上呢。
大半夜的又开始惆怅了。

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思绪混乱的一篇~
以上，
某慧
2011年12月31日凌晨3.20分。

脑的记忆容量。

2011-11-23T01:03:00.003+08:00

想来觉得很不可思议：
人类的脑容量...

不管你活了多久，你的那些记忆依然会伴随你而左右。
就算老来记忆有些模糊了，但只要拥有类似的人事物出现依旧能促动内心的钥匙吧。

啊~

真是~~~

对于那盘曾经让我哭笑不得的炒蛋、两杯咖啡和一堆数学作业。
对于过往的通讯记录仿佛还能回忆当初的对话内容
对于那些的点点滴滴，都会让我自个儿傻笑半天。

我说啊，我这辈子是没药可救。XD

电视剧一样的人生。

2011-10-06T12:52:00.002+08:00

曾经天真地以为...
香港剧那样的荒唐的情节，永远只会出自于那些编剧人之手。
曾经天真地以为...
健朗的老人家们，一定可以一直一直陪伴于左右。
虽然总会有离开的那一天；但也会是在若干年后，当我们对于他们的付出有所回报之后。

不过原来现实生活中不是的...
那些香港剧的情节真的会很狗血的发生。
曾经健朗的老人家们...或许在下一瞬间就离开了。

无法想象的，看到警车、看到消防部队和救护车的霎那..
心里是有多么的不安。
千头万绪的都在叫嚣着希望不是真的、希望只是虚惊一场。
但是心里的祈祷并没有被听到。

果然是人生如戏，戏如人生么？

心情烦躁。

2011-10-05T14:13:00.002+08:00

一大清早（其实也没有很早啦）就被电话的铃声给吵醒...
好吧，其实已经missed call很多次了。（但是还是在极度不情愿的情况下接通了）
于是... 我晴天霹雳了。

心在心里完全的七上八下.. 现在是烦躁的要死... TT_TT

有些话想说出来，却知道现在还不可以。我会不会就这样然后疯掉呢？
让我发泄发泄一下下吧。

Ps：看不懂没关系.. 这纯粹是一篇拿来发泄的玩意儿！

以上，
Ying Hui，5 Oct 2011 2.24pm

饭与偶像之间，那些说不清理不清的关系。

2011-09-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

针对较早前和朋友在Twitter的一段话。
事情的缘由来自那个让评论家针对他对Shinee一事的报道做出道歉的请愿书。

他说，希望我不是对那请愿书认真的。
我说，我是，而且我也请愿了。
之后就是一长串针对这事情我们两人的争论。

反正结尾就是，为什么我们总是要为了这些微不足道的事情而争论不休呢？

他说，他无法了解为什么我们能做到如此。

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对于他所说的，我想我能理解。
因为，他不曾涉足于这一切。
就像当初的我不能理解为什么J-pop为什么那么火红。
为什么突然之间那么多人愿意花费时间去看/去听不能轻易就理解的日语呢。

而当我泥足深陷于这股韩流之中时，我突然明白过来了。
原因很简单，也都是一样的啊。因为那些事情总有那么一处是吸引你的啊。

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请尊重我们好吗？
尊重我们喜欢他们的那股心情好吗？
或许，我们看上去很傻；为了那么几个遥不可及的人物，而哭而笑的。
或许，我们看上去很不理智；为了他们甘愿放弃午饭的时间就为了想搜索各种关于他们的消息...
或许的或许...但是这些真的碍不着任何的人。

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请不要说我们这些饭很偏激好吗？请不要说这点小事何必用到请愿书来要求道歉好吗？

我们只是一群爱着他们、支持着他们的傻子。所以，只要任何人选择来攻击或诋毁他们，我们就会尽心的以傻子的方式来捍卫着这群人。

所以拜托，不要来质疑我们，质疑任何我们所决定做的事，因为你们这些人根本就不了解。谢谢。

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身为朋友的各位，是不是能用那么一点的心思去体贴一下我这卑微的心情呢？
能不能尝试的去体会这各种的酸甜苦辣呢？
如果真的无法做到，那么是否可以考虑暂时的当做什么都不知道的任我继续的支持这群人呢？

以上，
颖慧 2011年9月14日 12.22am

低落的心情。

2011-08-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

怎么说呢，这几天的心情稍微低落了一点。
其实说起来，好像真的不是什么很严重的事情呢。（金希澈去当个兵有多严重！？）
只是偶然间发现投入了比我想象中要更多的情感在里头；
然后又因为找不到能明确了解的人...所以只好通过其他方法来宣泄。
比方说：眼泪。

原来当眼泪慢慢聚集在眼眶里头的时候，世界真的是朦胧一片的。
你看不清楚在你前方的任何事物..包括你那颗想要哭泣的心。
然后，当眼眶再也无法负荷眼泪的重量从而划过脸庞的时候；世界清澈了...心好像也释放了些什么。

反正这几天就是反复的回顾从前的很多很多...视频、UFO等等。
结果眼泪就一直在聚集。
28号那天，看完人气之后整整流泪了一个小时。（有点疯狂吧）
反正在那一瞬间，只要是那么一丁点感人/虐心的都能让我一触即发。
很辛苦很辛苦...

2年很快的吧？等着你回来...
我不去送你走；但我希望当你回来得时候，再大的风雨我都能亲自前往那个有你的地方接你回来，接你回来这一片蓝色的海洋。 약속

2011-08-24T13:12:00.002+08:00

一点点的更新~ 我说！我决定把这里换成华语小天地了啦！ ^u^

学校方面，顺利（？）并且成功的完成了第一份报告。
说是顺利其实也不尽然...如果说，你的报告Guide是那么的暧昧模糊、教授又是那么的不善解人意。
泥煤的，怎么可能顺利啊！！没发神经就算不错了啊！！ TuT

接下来，应该还有2个正式报告、一个Presentation、一个30%的小测验然后就是考试... = =
怎么看着这些心里就冷汗直流啊！中间完全没有任何的休息空间啊！！

不管怎么说，先update到这里吧！
滚去学校了！

Signing off,
Ying Hui 24 Aug 2011 1.23pm

2011-08-02T01:45:00.001+08:00

反正就是开学了；陆续接到各种论文报告的截止日期了。再过不了多久，也许又会再度进入疯狂的境界。（噩梦）

前不久去了趟台湾；和弟弟还有他的朋友。挺不错的经验，怎么说也是第一次离开了父母的视线一群（？）小朋友自己在外闯荡。
或许过程当中也有些许的不如意，在这里就不说了。XD不过真的... 是个很另类的体验啊！不过回来唯一的想法就是，我下次他妈的再也不会在夏天的时候过去了！！！！TuT 我都快热疯兼中暑了！每天到了正中午就只想着回去酒店，不然就是找个阴凉的地方休息吧... TuT。在不然的就是一直一直买饮料解渴；好多钱都花在这里了啊！！！！

明年的目标... 韩国自由行啊！！！！！ ^u^

就这样吧，晚安！

2011年8月2日1.44am.

告白的心情？

2011-07-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

突然，一闪而过的冲动。
真的很想点下那很显眼的MSN名称然后打上사랑해요。
盯着荧幕大概...一秒钟，我退缩了。

都说是冲动了呗... 妈妈时常告诉我“冲动真的是魔鬼。做事千万要十万分的冷静。”
所以... 当冲动来了，冷静在旁...我就冷却了。（这句话好诡异。）

不管怎么说，这份悸动应该还不是冷却的时候...那么就试着压抑吧~
反正；对着你心动也不会影响到你~ -摊手-

话说回来..你到底什么时候才能和你碰个面啊！！！！
要给你的伴手礼还在我这里啊！！！！要发霉了啊！！

以上，
发疯了的慧。

2011-07-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

Well, Just had my first week of school.
Totally can't get that studying mode back.
In fact, I am still unable to adjust back my sleeping time. Q Q

I am like so dead can!!!! >"<
Anyway, guide for assignment and reports are coming in.. So I think I will undergo another period of madness once more, maybe till final exams is nearing.. Opps.. Which is going to be like 3 months later?! = =

Oh and I am having headache whenever I am looking at my finance notes. Nabei! So many calculation!! But thank god there aren't no reports to do, except for a 30% class test. So not so bad I guess.

When it comes to report writing, I guess I am so much stronger in calculation! Hah!

So yup. Anyway, been busy for the past days rotting and rotting and more rotting. XD

And I finally decide to trim my damn long fringe, the outcome? Short... And blocking my view. Orz

Welll. Just a really short one! Kekeke! Till the next time then!

2011-04-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

I am becoming more and more similar to this particular person. Failing to blog weekly, resulting in dust and spider web all over my this little space.

Anyway, a little update.//
1st thing...
Exam period as of now, till 9 May. Dying real soon. I need my life(?) back!
So meanwhile, please try not to ask me to go out for lunch or dinner.
Two more paper before I am free. One more month or so before my little escape from this place.

2nd thing...
GE is up, and voting is a big thing. First time voting just when I turn 21. How lucky can I get you tell me. oh! Why a serial number on the polling card?

3rd thing...
Mr Lim. is finally back in SG. Only at times that I truely felt that he wasnt around... why you may asked? Cause he was still pestering me through MSN every now and then, not forgetting the day when he was in airport waiting for his plane.

Well bump into him on friday as I made payment for my little escape. Surprise Surprise! =)

4th thing...
thinking of joining and her friend for this kpop dance class. 100 bucks for 10 lessons... Should I? Wants to get some exercise weekly.... -> But, money is the issue. Lols!!!

PS: Ms Lieu ar!!!! I am missing you.... =(. Come back fast..

Signing off,
1 May 2011 12.00am

心冷...

2011-04-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

想想..心冷的感觉到底是如何的？

2011-03-07T14:25:00.001+08:00

I am not someone who will give up that easily...
But if I really do. That only means I was hurt by whatever that situation is...
And if I really do, it just means that I had already lost all hopes... >.<
I just hope that day won't arrive.

Ahh. The thought of giving up have been in my mind...........

Oh well, shall get back to work after drifting away for such a long time. Heh!

Happy Me 행복한 나를 by Huh Gak 허각

2011-03-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

Happy Me 행복한 나를 by Huh Gak 허각

존박:
Yeah girl listens
You're the only one for me baby
And let me tell you why

허각:
몇번인가 이별을 경험하고서 널 만났지
I met you after a few heartbreaks
그래서 더 시작이 두려웠는지 몰라
So maybe that was why our start was so unsure
하지만 누군갈 알게 되고 사랑하게 되는 건
But getting to know and to love someone
네가 마지막이라면 얼마나 좋을까
How nice would it be if you were my last?

나처럼.. ^바쁜 하루 중에도 잠시 네 목소릴 들으면
Like I do.. if you hear my voice, even for a moment in a busy day
함께 있는 것처럼 너도 느껴지는지
Do you also feel like we are together?
매일밤 집으로 돌아갈 때 그 곳에 네가 있다면
Every night, when I return home and if you are there
힘든 하루 지친 네 마음이 내 품에 안겨쉴텐데
My stress and pain from the day will melt away in your arms

*지금처럼만 날 사랑해줘, 난 너만 변하지 않는다면
Love me just like this, if you would never change
내 모든걸 가질 사람은 너뿐이야
You’re the only one that has all of me
난 흔들리지 않아
I will never waver
넌 가끔은 자신이 없는 미래를 미안해 하지만
You may be unsure in the face of the unknowable future
잊지 말아줘 사랑해, 너와 함께라면 이젠 행복한 나를
But never forget that I love you, if it is with you, I will be forever happy

존박:
I can always be happy with me
I can always be happy with me

Repeat ^
Repeat *

난 많은 기대들로 세상이 정해 놓은 사랑을 버리고
I’m throwing away what the world tells me I should love
네 마음처럼 난 늘 같은 자리에, 또 하나의 네가 되고 싶어, 소중한 널 위해
My heart is in the same place as yours, I want to be another part of you, for you who is my precious

지금처럼만 사랑해줘 항상
Love me just like this forever
너만 변하지 않으면
As long as you don’t change
내 전불 가질 사람은 너뿐이야
You’re the only one that has all of me
난 흔들리지 않아
I will never waver

자신 없는 미래 넌 미안해 하고 있니
Are you feeling unsure in the unknowable future?
넌 이제 혼자가 아니야.. 이젠 잊지마
You’re no longer alone..never forget
너와 함께라면 언제나 행복한 나를
That when I’m with you I am happy

존박:
I can do anything and everything
If my life's with you

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Huh Gak was not the original singer but I really love his rendition of this particular song. He was the winder for Korean TV channel Mnet's SuperStar K2.
The rap was by John Park, an American singer of Korean descent. He was a semifinalist on American Idol (season 9) and is the runner-up of Superstar K2.

Chanced upon this song because of We Got Married Season 2. Jokwon from the Adam Couple sang this song to Gain, a few episode before they leave.
A very touching song, or at least, that's what I felt.
Cried like mad when Jokwon finish the song. -Gain cried as well.-

Enjoy the song!! =D

Fever

2011-02-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

Never thought that the virus will be so stubborn and stay for such a long time.

Ever since the start of cny I am already feeling sick.

From cough to blocked nose to sore throat to flu... and now to the final stage. -> FEVER!

Now a heavy head... = =|||

Been a long long long time since I had a fever... So totally bad feeling! >.>

I really had to get well asap! Not only because of my soon to be due report... and also weekend lunch with girlfriends(?) over at Kim's Family! >.>

Come on virus, you can always come back after my school term.. which is like one month later. So for now, just remain calm all right....

TT TT

All right, I shall sign off now...

Complete whatever I need to complete for the night, then medicine time and sleep!!

YA! VIRUS, go away by tomorrow morning!

Signing off,

Ying Hui 21 February 2011, 9.21pm.

期待已久的Super Show 3！

2011-01-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

等了又等；盼了又盼。
今天终于实现了。
生平第一次那么的疯狂的为了一组人。正确来说是，15个男人。

就算是全世界的人没人能明白为什么我愿意自付那两百多元就为了看他们；
真地，我不在乎。
就算全世界的人都认为我疯了；
真地，我不在乎。
就算是父母朋友无法理解；
真的，我不在乎。

就算是为了他们必须早起只为占到好位；
真的，我不在乎。
就算是为了他们坐的屁股双疼脚麻痹；
真的，我不在乎。

就算是要等7个小时；
真的，我不在乎。
就算是要站着观看3小时的演唱会；
真的，我不在乎。
就算是嗓子哑了，手酸了；
真的，我不在乎。
就算到了尾声全身酸疼；
真的，我不在乎。

我尽情地放任自己享受这表演；
我尽情地放纵自己的情感跟着他们笑与哭。（看到大茄子出现的那段；崩溃了的我。）
我很认真地投入其中；
很认分的做到身为ELF该做的。（应援、尖叫）

因为他们值得我那么不顾一切的去爱着...去支持着。

我爱上了；
这一华丽完美的演出。
我爱上了；
尽心演出的你们…
在很久很久之前。

6年了。
从最初的12人到后来的13人然后到15人。
从最初的默默无闻到现在的人气。
看着有的人走了进来，有的人却离开了。
一路的风风雨雨，都挺过来了呀。
一路上跌的疼了；也伤过心了。
可是，他们依旧是我最爱的。

永远有多远...我们不要永远好吧？
就用余生...来做ELF！
余生，够久了吧！

SuperShow 3 - Singapore!

2011-01-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

Note: It's gonna be a freaking long entry..

30 Jan 2011, the day that all Singapore E.L.F have been anticipating for since don't know when. -Most probably since SuJu started their concert tour back in a few years time. - Super Show 3 is finally in Singapore over at indoor stadium!!!! T^T

Started my day at about 7 plus and head over to "Stadium" MRT Station by 9am to meet up with Stef and friends. Even though the concert was schedule to start at 4pm.
Reach there and settle down.... >.< The queue is long... And we had to sit on the floor. All right, we waited for like 6 hours before they let us in… But the amazing thing was, we were still in the 625 people where we get to stand real in front! We were arranged to be somewhere behind the centre stage.
The crew over there... pretty funny. Shared some little news with us; they reveal that during yesterday rehearsal the boys were asking for ice due to the heat, and then Korean noodles and end off with Korean strawberries -> All information gotten from their walkie talkie.
Before we enter, Stef and I actually saw Suju entering the stadium!!! AHH!!! It was sheer pure luck can! We were coming out from the toilet and decided to 'explore' the stadium to find the merchandise store, only to be so lucky to see them entering…
Actually initially we thought that place swarmed with people was the merchandise store, only to find out it was some room and we saw 2 white vans with people driving in and parking over there.
So in the end I saw Heenim, Teukkie oppa, Donghae and Eunhyuk; from far, but enough to trigger that excitement that yes, the concert is really going to start!!!
Anyway, let me sidetrack for a bit.. -> THE LIGHTSTICK!!! DAMN IT! The seller was like soooo.... Arrgg We were super nervous and panicky cause we haven took our light stick from the seller and we were going to be admit into the stadium like in half hour time. Really irritated by the seller for she did not pick up her phone nor reply sms. - -|||
Even though I still got the lightstick in the end all thanks to Stef's friend!!! =^^= (I like the lightstick alot!) but still… Tsk!
Back to the topic... Enter the stadium at about 2 plus 3? Standing pit – Pen B, so we have to 'chop' our place. Our position wasn't too bad, just that SuJu always face us with their back. >.<||
Waited and waited, you know time pass by real slow at that time. We were hungry and a little tired already. Finally, the advertisement of Suju appeared and everyone starting shouting. -> I almost went deaf.
Finally, they kick off the concert with Sorry Sorry remix version..
Okay, I went mad right at that moment!!! All those relax bullshit just throw right at the back of my mind. Screaming and chanting along with other E.L.F. That feeling, totally wonderful!!
Love it when it was their solo time... Ryeowook's one fine spring day with sungmin as the guitarist; Yesung's It's got to be you where everyone sing together; Kyunhyun's 新不了情; Donghae and Eunhyuk's collaboration (I can't remember the song title); Sungmin's If U Leave (HIS DANCE!!!!!!) Lady HeeHee's Bad Romance and Donghae,Eunhyuk,Shindong's Single Ladies and of course Crazy in Love. (We all went crazy because of you guys!)Henry's Baby Baby -> Super high!!! Heke...
During the little musical where Kangin appear in the video... the music was very sad, and I end up crying. I really felt like a babo back then, but; you just can't control the tears. Stef and friends were like hugging me -smile- But I really miss Kangin Oppa alot alot.... So much that I couldn't contain my tears. Everyone end up shouting Kangin's oppa name as the light dim down.
The ending.. as we shouted for encore. They re-appear with the veggie costume right after a very cute animation! Total cuteness, but too bad, my phone was on the verge of going flat so I gave up taking photos. =(

Right at the end where they said their speech. Siwon told us that Suju are preparing for a new album, and Donghae joke that maybe 4 years later -He was being a dork!- Ahh. and as everyone leave the stage, donghae remained and ask for music and said "Solo dance time" =D
Time flies during the concert.
Although I was squeezed and squashed here and there when everyone rush to see eunhyuk, kyuhyun, teukie, ryeowook, yesung when they stopped over at our side.
Although I was being splashed by eunhyuk...
Although my feet was freaking sore when the whole thing ends...
Although my arms were sore from holding the lightstick and camera...
Although my throat hurts after screaming so much...
It was ALL WORTH IT!!! Really, from the bottom of my heart.

Okay I think I will be in this state for the rest of the week -> As I arrange my videos, photos... WAKAKAKAK!!!
Oh, and I am so gonna buy their SS3 DVD when they released it!!!!

Abstract of what I had wrote during lecture.

2011-01-20T00:30:00.001+08:00

《最后的眼泪：来不及的再见》
耳边隐约传来大哥的声音…那么的惋惜却又无可奈何。

「舍得舍得，有舍方才有得。不要担心，我们会看着他的。」

心里有千言万语的不舍得，可是大哥的话我也心知肚明。仿佛不能逃离命运的作弄一般。曾经我爱你爱的无法自拔，爱的毫无尊严可言；只求你不别说你不爱我。但我们却错过了几年的时光；如今我依然爱你就算再也不能与你相守…

再次深深的看了他一眼，看着他眼角的泪、颤抖的肩、哭哑了的嗓子。把心一横，释放了所拥有的能量进而化为了一玉佩——泪滴型而后降落于他的手心。

我没有办法再次的重生，我没有办法陪着你到天荒；爱你到地老。那么就让我化为手心里的玉佩，陪着你看着人世间、陪着你看透这红尘。即使，我得付出所有的一切，我也甘之如愿。

再见了我的挚爱。

结尾

泪珠盈满眶摇摇欲坠流；
模糊世界醉清澈世界碎。
轻轻收回眼万分眷恋飞；
奢望陪你浪迹天涯海角。
不愿化为漂泊不定的海；
不愿化为一望无际的天。
只愿化为伤心欲绝的泪；
陪你看尽人生沧海桑田。

==============================
Comments any? And pls.. It is really handwritten by me.. - -||||
including the poem. =D

3rd day of Year 2011.

2011-01-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

So fast, it is already the 3rd day of Year 2011.
First thing first, let's review my year 2010:

1) Go for KOREAN LANGUAGE COURSE! -Really hope I can achieve this!-
2) Continue loving everyone that is dearest to me!
3) To continue taking things easy, looking at a diff. view, learning to give and take!

Well, out of the 3 resolution, I suppose the first two were attained. =)
Not too bad? At least better than what I had achieved in Year 2010 for my Year 2009 Resolution! -Laugh-

Oh well, as for my this year resolution:

1) Continuation of my Korean learning and take part in the TOPIK in say 2 years time.
2) Continue loving everyone that is dearest to me!
3) To finish off that very first long story, with an additional story.
4) To go for back-pack with friends!!

# # #

Today had a mini farewell party for Mr. Shawn who will be leaving Singapore on 4th Jan for his student exchange over at Canada.

Knitted a scarf for him. Exactly a month for me to finish 3 balls of 50g yarn. =D I am happy with my speed, but the quality wise.. T T
Anyway, quite unwilling to give him that scarf just as I was wrapping it up this morning before setting off to Zor's place. T T. I like that scarf so much!!! =D
I think I shall make myself one also!! TeeHee!

Oh Oh. Ordered pizza for lunch just now, together with Zor 친구 and Ms Becky 친구. Yummy! Always love to eat pizza, but expensive to buy. T T
Shi Hao prepared Bread pudding? Or whatever that is called. Nice!! =) Crispy! Heh! I have a serious sweet-tooth problem. Oh and mint chocolate ice-cream!!!

Took quite some photos! And the spects photo as our profile picture~ I just keep smiling whenever I saw all the profile pictures! Heh! Talking about being childish?

Ah! Really love all of them!

Oh, by the way, I must say..: Maybe because we are way tooo close with each other, somehow all our thinking are alike! Out of all those bon voyage messages for Mr Shawn, three were talking about the same thing! Heh! Which were like one-third? Quite a lot I suppose!

Nice day! =)

It was really a cool way of spending the day! Just nua-ing over at your friend house, with a bunch of friends. Watching some meaningless movies, chatting, and best falling asleep while watching movie~ What more can you ask for?

# # #

Not to mention to nua at home on the sofa with your relatives, watching movies also! Muhahah!

I realise I spent my first 2 days of Year 2011 nuaing at sofa watching movies..
- -|||

Ps: Ms Twinny.. Are you okay?? =X

Oh, by the way, Bon Voayge Mr Toh! =) Enjoy your HK trip. (I am super jealous that you can to go)

Signing off,
Ying Hui 3/1/11 1.19am

Merry X'mas

2010-12-25T02:30:00.002+08:00

Wishing all a Merry Merry X'mas!!!^^
Ms twinny, come back soon!! Gonna miss you!!! XD

Signing off,
Ying Hui, 25 Dec 2010 2.31am

Happy 21st Birthday!

2010-12-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

Actually, this post was supposed to be up on 19th Decmember. But clearly, I was just plain lazy to make an update.

Had my 21st Birthday on 18th Dec. Both side relatives, the gang, the super 4 and my Brothers!!!!!.. =D
Had fun, but was tiring.. >.<
Love all the presents; cards and birthday wishes that I received. =3= (look carefully! It is a kiss!!!)

Sorry for not being a good host that day...
AND I MUST SAY! I AM NOT DRUNK THAT DAY! INFACT I DIDNT EVEN DRINK ONE CAN OF BEER LA!!!! IT JUST HAPPEN MY FACE FREAKING RED NIA. DONT ASK ME WHY.

Miss Becky 친구 and Shawn stayed over and played Mahjong and monopoly deal; Maybe until 5 plus 6 before Becky 친구 was knocked out and fell asleep on my bed~
That Mr. Shawn still happily playing RC using my Desktop.

In the end, I fall asleep at about 8.30am? After updating my FB status with kor that comes with loads of mistakes.. - -|| Mind wasn't thinking clear anymore!

19 Dec -> The actual day of my Birthday.. Actually, I just nua at home.. = =|||||

21 Dec -> Surprise MJ with a cake over at her hse, together with Miss Xp and Mr. Shawn. LOLS!!! That woman took so long to open the door. TvT The candle was burning like mad.

Finished off that chocolate cake... Real yummy!! =D

Oh well, I guess that's about it?
I will live a meaningful life... as wish by someone! (Laugh)

Signing off,
Ying Hui 24 Dec 2010 3pm. -> X'mas Eve...

2010-12-13T00:41:00.003+08:00

You know how that there is this urge always there... Wanting to roll your eyes at certain issue or person?
Somehow, this desire of mine is growing bigger and larger as time goes, and as more information are reveal to me. -Roll eye x2-
Oh well, given the fact that I can't really do it in reality... So just let me roll my eyes here as many time as I want~

Just a little update on my life now...
-> Nuaing still. ^^.
-> Birthday coming.. ^^
-> Knitting in process ^^ -> Because of this, I am going crazy soon.
-> Trying to catch up with certain people that have been disappearing in my life ^^ -> Cursing people (?) who haven been replying my SMS!!!! ^^" (I had already given up on the hope that he will reply anyway.)

Planning to do for my life...
TRIM MY HAIR! -> Fringe~~~
Cont' to nua until school reopen!^^
FINISH UP THAT PIECE OF KNITTING! -> I am going blind soon, and I mean real soon. New Year 2011 Resolution? -> Which eventually turns into crap by the end of the year. - -

Ps: I am super calm when it comes to certain issues.! Surprise you, I guess!
And, what's up with the "hurhur" over at Mr. Wee's blog!? =0= I will be surprise that Mr. Wee actually saw this..... XD

Oh, one more little thought... Just notice that as human, we always look up tons of excuse whenever we faced something which is beyond our tradition paradigm!?

释怀~

2010-12-06T22:36:00.001+08:00

因为长大了，释怀了...
才能带着微笑回味着从前。

First day of the last month of year 2010

2010-12-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

今天..12月1日...
2010年最后一个月的第一天.
就只是突然很感慨罢了.

很快吧时间的流逝。
真的是一眨眼..一年就要过去了..
也许是时候从新整理自己的人生？？
呵。
忙碌的我们啊....

开始想念从前从前单纯美好的日子了！

사랑합니다

2010-11-29T01:47:00.003+08:00

나 사랑합니다.
나 왜 너 사랑합니다.
나 생각하고 이유는 필요 없어
그녕...사랑합니다.
그냥 너 사랑합니다.

***

나 지금 너 할 고백합니다.
니가 알겠냐

A meaningful Lunch

2010-11-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

Went over to CWP yesterday noon for a lunch date with Ms Audrey.
Kinda of different from what I had expected the lunch would ended up to be.
Ms Audrey shared a lot with me. Even though she ain't any much older than me.
Perhaps because of the environment that she lives in？ I guess.

I remembered she asked me...
"Did you regret?"
I suppose I did. I regretted a lot for not mastering enough courage? Hah!
What but to do, it is already at this stage, a little too late for me to turn back and re-walk???

一切万物起源于根本...
只是偶尔的我们却没有勇气一层一层的解剖下去。
没有勇气面对付出的比收获的不成等同的比例吧....

沉浸于故事里头…

2010-11-09T19:38:00.006+08:00

我读故事书的速度终于恢复了…
普通的言情小说三个小时就读完了…
然后沉浸在故事里头的气氛…

就因如此… 所以才很讨厌读悲伤的文…
因为总是忘记要把我抽离于故事的情
节…

好吧…我忘了我还要说什么了…………

Qualification of Men

2010-10-31T00:50:00.002+08:00

rewatch the show Qualification of Men just now.
Not too sure if it was the third or fourth time already.
Well, there isnt much of a different.
I still cried while watching. At the same scene somemore.
Sounded very silly? Actually it is. Because I should already be immune to it.
Somehow.. it just remind of some real precious memory that I had been keeping in my heart. but then.. those memory are getting kinda of blur..

Oh well, after harping for so long about that show.. I realise I did not mention what that show is all about?
Basically, it is a mission for the seven men otherwise known as the MC of the show to create harmony. In another words.. Choir!
The choir was established with a total of thirty two members.. All of them came from different places, different jobs and definitely holds different dreams. However, they were bounded together to create that one voice. Something just bond all of them together fast. From zero, they trained and learn. Two months later they joined in the competition.
Actually, it just remind me of the sec school time.. How we tried so hard during the last SYF time. New conductor, new songs. but we hold through..

I suppose it is something that not all will understand.
I still like the choir life, even with all the vocal training. Most importantly, how it actually gave me wonderful memories and of course friends. ^-^

Off note a bit. This entire entry is typed via my new phone... I think I must be mad....

Good Night to all...
I wish to the stars that they will bring sweet dreams to all my lovely friends.
I wish to the stars that all of them to smile happily....
And I secretly wish for my dreams to come true.
晚安宝贝们！

感伤的夜晚

2010-10-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

雨过的天，是否真的会转晴？
风雨过后，是否真的有彩虹？

生命总叫我们无奈。
可是无奈了之后，我们又能如何呢？

MIA..

2010-10-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

Missing in action for a very very very long time.. >.<
Oh well.. The crazy school lectures are finally ending.. But that means the exams are nearing.. Like Super near. 3 more weeks to it? And I haven even start studying.. and let alone reading whatever additional ESSENTIAL reading that are require.

Oh Well Oh Well... Study aside.. My korean lesson are ending in another 3 weeks time.. Just 2 days before my first paper. =) Really had fun learning the language Korean. =)
And. definitely all those fun people I met in the class. Kekekek! =D

Time to motivate myself to start studying for the evil evil exam.. ^.^

OUTING!! K-BOX...................

I think I shld change my blogsong... =X

2010-09-13T16:57:00.002+08:00

牵起的手；誓言不放。

偶尔的睁只眼闭只眼生活豁达一些。
总是说着：“啊！我不想知道..不想知道。”
只是因为害怕。
害怕努力编制的谎言一戳就破。
只是害怕闭上眼...

看似幸福；
看似安逸；
看似完美；
原来内藏着好多暗礁。

无心失足；
遍地悔恨；
破碎遗憾；
原来却早已远离曾经。

总是不经意的透露...
总是不经意的说出...

也许出口早已封锁，我偏偏把自己困起来了.

2010-08-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, as we grow older.. there are some relationships that starts to grow distance.. = =

Trying to use the avoidance strategy.. which makes me feel tired all of a sudden...

只想有个人....

2010-08-20T18:36:00.002+08:00

只是想...有个人，陪着我走着...
陪着我...走过繁华都市...走过寂静乡间...

只是想...有个人，牵起我的手...
牵着我...走过颠簸路程...走过未知旅途...

只是想...有个人，伴在我身旁...
伴着我...尝遍人生百态...看尽沧海桑田...

2010-08-13T18:50:00.002+08:00

Was checking up the profile of "Beast" a korean idol group..
And...Founded something real surprising.. =)
Was actually born 同年同月同日 as one of the member! Lols!!!! =)

I am indeed 花心like what zor said...见一个爱一个 hahah!
but挚爱还是Suju and Shinee啦！！ ^^

Aza Aza. back to my assignment!

Speechless...

2010-08-06T00:08:00.001+08:00

他娘的...不要再诱惑我了...
一堆事情没做... 然后有一堆约会...
让我撞豆腐去吧... TvT

凌晨12依旧在奋斗中的某慧...

我要闭关啊！！闭关！！！

Busy August

2010-08-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

This August a real busy one!!
Putting aside that I have 6 assignment (1500-2000 words essays) due on either the 2nd or 3rd week of august.. =-= I am practically book on one of the day of every weekend!!! = =

1st week of Aug Friday -> HRM BBQ over at NP...
2nd Week of Aug Saturday -> Ting's B-day Celebration...
3rd week of Aug Saturday -> Start of Korean Class...
4th Week of Aug Fr-Sun -> Chalet!

Wakao! So damn full can! First time seeing this time of schedule..
I am so dead~~~~ = =
Anyway, a big hwaiting to myself! kekeke!

Song List updated!

2010-08-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

First thing First. Song List updated with 2 new songs! Lucifer by Shinee and Living in the heart by Untouchables Ft Narsha (BEG)

Will post up the lyrics for Lucifer! (Hangul/Rom/Eng) =) -> I am going gaga over this song! Blasting it all day long! kekekek!

9 months of waiting.. finally they are back! Whee!!!!

Shinee's Lucifer!
숨을 곳도 찾지 못해 나는 피하려고 애써봐도
sumŭl gotto chatji mothae nanŭn piharyŏgo aessŏ bwado
I can’t find a place to hide, even though I try to avoid you
거부조차 할 수 없는 네게 갇혀버린 나
gŏbu jocha hal su ŏmnŭn nege gathyŏbŏrin na
I can’t reject you, I’m imprisioned by you
사랑이었다면 정말 사랑했던 거라면 내게 이러지는 말아
sarangi ŏttamyŏn jŏngmal saranghaettŏn gŏramyŏn naege irŏjinŭn mara
if you say it was love, if you say it was really love, don’t be like this to me
Her whisper is the LUCIFER

*나를 묶고 가둔다면 사랑도 묶인 채
narŭl mukko gadundamyŏn sarangdo mukkin chae
if you tie me down and lock me in, the love is tied down too
미래도 묶인 채 커질 수 없는데
miraedo mukkin chae kŏjil su ŏmnŭnde
the future is tied down too, it can’t grow
자유롭게 비워놓고 바라봐 오직 너만 채울게 너만 가득 채울게
jayuropge biwonoko barabwa ojik nŏman chaeulge, nŏman gadŭk chaeulge
freely empty yourself and look at me, I’ll fill you, I’ll fill you up

거부 할 수 없는 너의 마력은 루시퍼(LUCIFER)
gŏbuhal su ŏmnŭn nŏye maryŏgŭn LUCIFER
your spell that I can’t reject is lucifer
거부 할 수 없는 너의 마법은 루시퍼(LUCIFER)
gŏbuhal su ŏmnŭn nŏye mabŏbŭn LUCIFER
your magic that I can’t reject is lucifer
다가서면 너는 마치 천사 같은 얼굴로
dagasŏmyŏn nŏnŭn machi chŏnsa gatŭn ŏlgullo
with your angelic face that comes close to me
나를 사는 이유라 말하고, 말하고
narŭl sanŭn iyura marhago marhago
You say and say that I’m your reason to live

너를 처음 봤을 때 짧은 순간 멈춰버렸지
nŏrŭl chŏŭm bwassŭl ttae jjalbŭn sungan mŏmchwo bŏryŏtji
when I first saw you, that short moment seemed to stop
누가 마치 내 심장을 꽉 쥔 채 놓지 않는 것처럼 (아직까지도)
nuga machi nae shimjangŭl kkwak jwinchae nochi annŭn gŏtchŏrŏm (ajik kkajido)
as if someone was clutching my heart tight, not letting go (still now)
너는 그렇게 내 맘을 다, 다, 다, 다, 다, 다 가져놓고
nŏnŭn gŭrŏke nae mamŭl dadada dadada gajyŏ noko
you took took took took my heart like that
니가 없으면 내 맘이 다 타버리게 만든다
niga ŏpsŭmyŏn nae mami da tabŏrige mandŭnda
if you weren’t here you’d make my heart burn out

* Repeat
Loverhollic, Robotronic, Loverhollic, Robotronic.

너와 같이 나눈 사랑얘기들 나랑 같은 곳을 바라보는 너
nŏwa gachi nanun sarang yaegidŭl narang gatŭn gosŭl barabonŭn nŏ
the love stories I’ve shared with you, you look at the same place as me
우리 더 이상은 완벽해질 수 없다고 느꼈을 때
uri dŏ isangŭn wanbyŏk haejil su ŏptago nŭkkyŏssŭl ttae
when we felt that we couldn’t be any more perfect
나만 쳐다봐. 너는 더, 더, 더, 더, 더, 더 나를 원해
naman chyŏdabwa nŏnŭn dŏdŏdŏ dŏdŏdŏ narŭl wonhae
stare only at me, want me more
나만 바라봐. 모든 게, 게, 게, 게, 게, 게 니가 중심
naman barabwa modŭn gegege gegege niga jungshim
look only at me, you’re the center of everything

언제부턴가 조금씩 잘못된 것 같아 이상한 너
ŏnje butŏnga jogŭmsshik jalmottwen gŏt gata isanghan nŏ
for a while, it seems like it’s gone wrong, you’re strange
날 알던 사람들 모두 하나 둘씩 곁을 떠나 난 가진 게 너뿐이고
nal aldŏn saramdŭl modu hana dulsshik gyŏtŭl ttŏna, nan gajinge nŏ ppunigo
everyone who knew me has left me one by one, I only have you

* Repeat

마치 유리성에 갇혀버린 삐에로만 된 것 같아
machi yuri sŏnge gatyŏ bŏrin pieroman dwen gŏt gata
it’s like I became a clown imprisioned in a glass castle
절대 만족 없는 너를 위해 춤을 추는 나
jŏldae manjok ŏmnŭn nŏrŭl wihae chumŭl chunŭn na
I’m dancing for you who can never be satisfied
훤히 들여다보고 뇌를 만져 바보 된 것 같아
hwonni dŭryŏda bogo nwerŭl manjyŏ babo dwen gŏt gata
brightly peek through, touch my brain. I’ve become a fool
난 점점 네게 끌려가는 것만 같은데
nan jŏmjŏm nege kkŭllyŏ ganŭn gŏtman gatŭnde
it feels like I’m being drawn to you little by little
Loverhollic, Robotronic, Loverhollic, Robotronic.

니가 미운 건 아냐 싫단 것도 아냐
niga miungŏn anya shiltan gŏtto anya
I don’t hate you, I don’t dislike you
단지 그런 눈빛이 부담일 뿐
danji gŭrŏn nunbichi budamil ppun
that gaze is merely a burden
어디 안가 이렇게 난 너만 바라보고 기다려 왔잖아
ŏdi anga irŏke nan nŏman barabogo gidaryŏ watjana
I’m not going anywhere, I’m just looking and waiting for you

Rap
너의 눈빛이 날 사로잡다 날이 갈수록 날카로워졌다
nŏye nunbichi nal sarojapta nari galsurok nalkarowo jyŏtta
your gaze captures me, it becomes sharper as the days go by
너의 집착에 지쳤다 많이 베었다 맘에 피가 난다
nŏye jipchage jichyŏtta mani beŏtta mame piga nanda
I’m tired of your obession, it cut me badly and my heart is bleeding
나 쓰러질 쯤 되면 다가와서 천사같이 “사랑해”란 말
na ssŭrŏjil jjŭm dwemyŏn dagawasŏ chŏnsa gachi saranghaeran mal
when I’m about to fall, coming to me like an angel to say ‘I love you’
누가 진짜 너였는지 알다가도 헷갈리게 만든다.
nuga jinjja nŏyŏnnŭnji aldagado het gallige mandŭnda
even though I knew it was you, you confused me

* Repeat

마치 유리성에 갇혀버린 삐에로만 된 것 같아
machi yuri sŏnge gatyŏ bŏrin pieroman dwen gŏt gata
it’s like I became a clown imprisioned in a glass bottle
나를 냅둬 자유로워 질 때 너를 진짜 사랑할 수 있고
narŭl naepdwo jayurowo jilttae nŏrŭl jinjja saranghal su itgo
leave me alone, when me free, I’ll be able to really love you
훤히 들여다보고 뇌를 만져 바보 된 것 같아
hwonni dŭryŏda bogo nwerŭl manjyŏ babo dwen gŏt gata
brightly peek through, touch my brain, I’ve become a fool
나를 냅둬 질리게도 말고 너를 진짜 바라볼 수 있게
narŭl naepdwo jilligedo malgo nŏrŭl jinjja barabol su itge
leave me alone, don’t sicken me, so that I can really look at you

나를 묶고 가둔다면 사랑도 묶인 채
narŭl mukko gadundamyŏn sarangdo mukkin chae
if you tie me down and lock me in, the love is tied down too
미래도 묶인 채 커질 수 없는데
miraedo mukkin chae kŏjil su ŏmnŭnde
the future is tied down too, it can’t grow
Loverhollic, Robotronic, Loverhollic, Robotronic
거부할 수 없는 너의 마력은 루시퍼(LUCIFER)
gŏbuhal su ŏmnŭn nŏye maryŏgŭn LUCIFER
your spell that I can’t reject is lucifer

特别的生日礼物...

2010-07-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

《游子吟》孟郊
慈母手中线，游子身上衣。
临行密密缝，意恐迟迟归。
谁言寸草心，报得三春晖!

终于能体会到了..那一针一线的辛劳...我真的觉得我疯了.. =X
于是..因为是你第21岁生日..所以特别的想做份特别的礼物...
至少...不会出自于其他人的手里.. =)

其实...曾经也做过了类似的送给其他人..可是..有点小失败...
所以.特别的希望..这一次，我能完完美美的完成！

剩下的时间...一个月多.. =)
剩下的部分...四分之三... =0

2010-07-04T04:24:00.002+08:00

As the rain falls lightly outside..
And here I am inside the room, with lights on,
soothing music by yiruma playing...

Gonna have a real nice slp later on!

Ps: Wasted my time waiting for this Spain Vs Paraguay match.. wasted my time for even watching.. = =
It was only until the nearing end of second half then it started to be more exciting... thanks to the penalty kicks rewarded to both side.. =0=
But at least... Spain managed to emerge as the winner of this round.. and will face GERMANY!? =0=
Nice one!
I suppose Germany do have a high chance of claiming that champion title... with Brazil, Argentina and Portugal leaving the game..
la~la~la~
Awaiting for finals~~ =)

And I had a real great time yesterday night over at sh's house! 21st B-day party for him. kekekek!

Start of School

2010-07-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

This week marks a total brand new start to my school life. =)
2 lectures on Econs, so far so good.
A good thing I have ms chua with me, if not I will be totally lost. =)

Econs.. a big problem for me. TvT.... To think I had escape from it clutch... it come hurting for me again!! = =

Nvm Nvm. I will keep up with whatever motivation I have for now and do real hard! Kekeke!

Anyway, a real short update...
My blog is like so damn dead.. -=-||

Time to change a new song. Piano piece.. but it moves my heart more than anything. TvT
Why do I have this tugging sense as I blast it at my speaker??

Signing off,
a very tired a-hui who have been chasing Worldcup for the past weeks. and of course, thankful for the topic that worldcup had created.

Family Dinner Dated June 2010

2010-06-23T00:35:00.003+08:00

Fond memories that should be kept with me for the rest of my life...

Plus-Closet

2010-06-15T23:53:00.003+08:00

Click Here to be directed to the shop! ^^

GUYS! PLS SUPPORT AND SPREAD IT for me!!! WHEE

Graduation 270510

2010-06-04T12:19:00.002+08:00

Finally, after 3 and a half years.. (Long hur!)
I SAW THIS!!!

Sat in the CC for like 1 hour just to be on stage for 5 secs for the handshake with director.. and a photo. Lols!! Glad that Ms XiaoWei was with me! =)

A pity that I didnt ask any of your.. =X

Anyway, photos up.. =) My tutor cant recognize me cause I am wearing my contact and with eyeliner on.. = =

My Tutors for my HR options

My classmates/groupmates/friends in my HR option..

Ms HuiHui

Ms Laoda aka ziwei aka fellow elf

Ms Apple

Ms Iani. classmates for 2 years!

Mr Wilson

Ms Meiling

Ms Xiaowei and Ms Tan

Kekekek. Fond memories in my very last year in NP. Really glad that I took HR... and retained for that additional half a year. If not, I wont be able to meet with all this fun and nice people! =)
Destiny I suppose! And I truly believe in it!

People! Keep in touch eh!

在你遥远的附近

2010-06-04T11:22:00.002+08:00

Song Title：在你遥远的附近
Singer：方力申

当知道近期
抑郁的你给那一个人当后备
从来也未咬着牙关生气
难道你错爱他到没救药余地
心飞到旧地
想起跟你别离亦没那么伤悲
仍然妒忌但仍然关心你
无奈我约你总要避
太上心
曾经与你散步过几公分
就算一公分相差千里也胜过别人
如何令我不担心
傻到要住到你的新居附近
看着你凌晨还何以未关灯
若这刻你那手机微震
是否可感到我体温
和你远或近仍像终身情人
告别了也共你同渡余生
往事远记忆近我仍然未死心
难甘心遥望你被人热吻
当知你后来
跟他恩爱突然明白我的悲哀
无论远近共时光怎比赛
难道我与你未分开
仍紧随你喜与悲
我问良心未算分离
仍如他和我可以比
我为何敢为你生气
仍紧随你喜与悲
我问良心未算分离
仍如他和我可以比
我为何敢为你生气
除非流失几世纪
纵隔着他未算疏离
离开才不舍不弃
跟你面对却没法亲你
这样近却像隔千里
你有事我定会找你

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Canto song which I chance upon recently. Like this song the moment I heard it! kekeke
Enjoy!
Damn! I have a lots of entry to clear.. =-=

2010-05-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

海不辞水，故能成其大；山不辞土石，故能成其高；明主不厌人，故能成其众；士不厌学，故能成其圣。

你说你了解...

2010-05-19T23:35:00.002+08:00

明明就未曾向你提起...为何，你又如此的清楚？
你说：我知道关于你的一切...

是吗？我很想那么的问你
当然我并没有那么做... 我是胆小鬼.更怕把你给吓跑了.
呵呵呵呵。

我对你说：“如果我不认识你这人...我真的觉得你是某些变态的stalker...”
-This reminds me of that stalker over at sh's blog.-

囧。

然后我们离题了。迫不及待吧，想逃离那难堪的困境。

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其实，多年之后...当我再次回首..兴许我早已不记得这文里提及的“他” = =
那也无所谓了吧...
Ps：你也再看这文章么？

"You still like him?"
"... A little I guess."

好多为完成的故事... = =

这样其实就很好

2010-05-17T10:40:00.002+08:00

又一次的失眠...这一次..一个小时半
躺在床上一点睡意都没有... = =
辗转了一个小时...拗不过心里的声音然后就传简讯给他。
好吧...带点撒娇（？）的意味.. -现在我真的觉得我疯了-
这真的是老人家所谓的“冲动是魔鬼！”

或许是很迟了的关系...回复的出奇的快. = =
那回复欠打！！

...
其实这样真的很好.顺便的打屁聊天~
^^
只是心里还有点小小的悸动...

于是双鱼男啊`~你在哪里？

老人家...

2010-05-09T22:24:00.002+08:00

我想要的...恁老人家给不起...
恁老人家给的起的...却不是我想要的.

我们就继续以这样诡异的模式相处下去吧.

偶尔的一封短讯、偶尔的嘘寒问暖、偶尔的留言...
偶尔的因你而小担心却又怕走过了界...
偶尔的因你而小生气却又怕踏过了线...

所以老人家...你明不明白...
我这想爱...又不敢爱。
我这进退两难的困境？

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我是因为看了张无忌和小昭的相处模式听着温流Jessica的OneYearLater突然很感伤的某慧.

Happy Mother's Day!!

2010-05-09T22:23:00.001+08:00

A very very very Happy Mother's Day to my mummi, granny~
And all other mothers out there! =)

观察力

2010-05-07T17:22:00.003+08:00

不得不佩服我自己的观察力！
即便是X-man从没说出口的事，凭着其他的线索我都能准确的猜测事情的来龙去脉。
不过我却希望从一开始的猜测是个错误。 -现在有点内疚-

于是我很想说：这件事究竟什么时候才能不再成为你伤心难过的包袱呢？
一个月、半年、一年、5年...
究竟要多久呢？？
到那时...我是不是还有那精力去看着你这样走过来呢...
有又如何？没有又如何？

我的身份...从什么时候再次变回了那三个字母呢？

你对她说：“我是真的很爱你。”
你对他说：“我是真的很爱她。”
那么...又有谁对着你说...“我很爱你呢？”
-戳死你！总是让我那么的心疼！-
原来...我们竟是如此的相似...对着某些事情执着到无可救药的地步.
最后...对于这件事...我好像悲剧了. = =
我真的真的很讨厌这样的结局... >.<

我非常之怀疑...有多少人能明白这通篇不顺、毫无逻辑可言的更新.
明白的人...MSN 和我说一声吧~

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我觉得...我再继续这样blog下去...迟早某人会把我杀了的. ^^

明天开始为期10个礼拜的韩语课程！ ^^

射手座的分析...

2010-05-02T22:00:00.001+08:00

射手座的分析...

乐观与忧愁：射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。

（第一句！那么的真实啊~~谁说外表乐观=内心乐观了？假象啊！假象！！）　　

　　
　　　　现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。

（不要再说我懒了！丫的！踹死那人！）
　　　　
　　　　拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。

（是吗？普哈哈！为什么我不那么觉得~基本上一粒黑色巧克力就可以收买我了... = =）

　　　　多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。

（= =...这算什么！？）
　　　　
　　　　射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！
（这句话非常之乐意看到~不过...我的手气没一次是好的！）

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Ps：从这里开始，请认真地读！！咔咔咔！如果你想了解射手的话~ -摊手-

　　　　人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？
（其实...我们没有，或许只是比较容易和人打成一片而已...）

　　　　射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。

（说白了...我们开始时刺猬，久了就变了...于是，如果一开始你无法忍受的话~你将会失去...爱你的射手！）

　　　　在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。

（这是为什么射手很容易受伤么？谁说只有双鱼是这样的了？）
　　　　
　　　　人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告诉你，我很好不用担心。

（射手就一个乔装的大笨蛋！以为这样就可以掩饰得很好...殊不知勉强的笑容难看得要死！）
　　　　
　　　　在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

（总而言之，言儿总之...射手很是会伪装。甚至有时都不认识自己究竟是怎样。他们有太多的表皮...而这些表皮只是为了保护自己。所以千千万万不要把射手付出的感情随意抛弃！如果你能得到射手的爱...其实你是幸福的！哇咔咔咔！）

话说...我曾经也喜欢过一金牛座的. 我郁闷。这到底算什么！

MS那礼物还在他家书房书桌上...那字条还在礼物之下...无法抹去的痕迹，可是感觉却不在一样了...

回看这一切...心里只是有着淡淡的感慨。 -我疯了我~-

Ps：非常之抽风的一entry...

不要问我为什么...不要说不要再Blog in Chinese！-> Ms我最近都在说这句话.

我现在想去爱一双鱼的男人！ -^^- 请看清楚那“想”字蛤！！

言情小说

2010-04-23T17:57:00.002+08:00

最近疯狂的阅读言情小说 -就是那类在图书官借得到的-
于是...我华丽丽的中毒了！^.^
中了作者绿痕的阴阳系列！

第一次有这般冲动想上网网购整套的书籍...
啊~~~我疯了疯了~

600th Post. ^^

2010-04-20T10:55:00.007+08:00

第600篇博客...6年的时间... - 这算啥？！平均一年一百篇... =0= -
换了首新歌...其实也不算是. 天空之城的主题曲...很久很久的一首歌了.

最近在某百度贴吧溜达...读到了与这首歌有着莫大关系的文..
《天空之城》
故事的开头，一个上了天堂，一个眼睛瞎了.
作者还很厚道的标明是贺文... =0=
于是我说，这样的一个开头...究竟有多贺文呐！- 真想踹死那作者 -
当然开头都已经是如此，接下来的更不可能轻松到哪儿去.

于是五章一篇文...配着天空之城的音乐...看完哭死.. - 虽然没有真的哭出来，只是心里揪得辛苦 -
老头子和小鬼头的故事...
中间的时候才知道老头子为啥甘愿把小鬼头撇下自己走了...原来是出事了，
只是从小鬼头那里说着的淡淡的没有太多的情绪起伏的叙说，心疼的紧.
到最后小鬼头自己一人做完了曾经两人一起做的事，然后放手了...跟着老头子的步伐.

文的最后一段是那么写着的：
老头子，我好想你。看你冲我咧嘴傻笑就觉得幸福的想要哭泣。

老头子，生日快乐。

老头子，我回来了。

小鬼头，欢迎回家。

其实...故事的结局挺好的吧...虽然都翘辫子了. =0=

叹气...被这文折腾得~~~~ ToT

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忘了说...最近情绪起伏比较大...请见谅啊~
然后...请不要再纠结于我的MSN Nick...
不要再说chim girl.其实真的一点都不chim的
默...
不要再说为什么用华语打blog了！= =

辛苦愿意读完这篇entry的孩子...抱个~
我知道Mr shawn会不愿意读的！哇哈哈哈！

2010-04-13T15:42:00.002+08:00

越是做这份工...
却莫名的让我越加的反感...

妈的！眼泪又开始的流了...

2010-04-08T23:48:00.004+08:00

虽然都知道...一直都知道
总归有完结的那么一天...
只是眼泪还是无助的流.

总是想方设法的逃避那完结
总是想着...只要不去看...就没有完结的一天...

看着眼眶的泪，心里好多的无奈与心疼...
也许只是个节目，但是放进去的感情却是真实的.

20年后...约定吧...
佑根啊，20年后你还会记得么？
当年很疼你的5名appa们...

哭累了的慧

《锦瑟》作者：李商隐

2010-04-02T22:42:00.001+08:00

《锦瑟》作者：李商隐

锦瑟无端五十弦，一弦一柱思华年。
庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶，望帝春心托杜鹃。
沧海月明珠有泪，蓝田日暖玉生烟。
此情可待成追忆，只是当时已惘然

QQ Chatting...

2010-03-29T22:48:00.003+08:00

Went over to xp's house for gang outing. Movie Marathon!!
My gf's an agent../avatar/ old dogs/ bedtime stories... Took a short nap over at her house while zor was watching bedtime stories. Lols!! Real tired..

At the very same night, chatted with the girls, ice and yam till 5am in the morning... =-=
Damn crazy can!! ^.^. Totally zap away all my energy.. Lols!

I am hooked on QQ chatting! kakak!

Chatting till very late at night!

2010-03-28T03:46:00.002+08:00

Currently, still chatting on QQ....
Going to bed at 4am. The last time I slept so late was... during CNY eve last year. =-=... or was it the year before..

너 보고싶어

Primary School Photo

2010-03-24T12:47:00.002+08:00

Primary 6 photo up and tagged on Facebook.
Got a shock in the beginning... Cause, didnt expect kim heng to post it up. - ha! -
And then, somehow people start to get link up, and commenting on the photo.
100 over comments just in a night. =)

Now, I am truly gladful that he posted it up. He bring us all together though there are some still missing... >.<
Well, 9 years since I grad from GPRS. 9 years since I talk with some of them. Those who used to be my dearest friend... however time distance us over the years. ToT

So... perhaps, let's meet up someday. The 10th year anniversary!

Signing off,
falling into the pit of old memories.

Random~

2010-03-19T00:17:00.002+08:00

Totally Generation Gap ar!!!
But the thing is, our age only differ by 1 year old. >3<

When your bf = breakfast.. and my bf = boyfriend! Lols!

Calling me lame when you are the one to confuse me in the first place. tsk tsk tsk!

And!! I am dead worried about someone!! Idiot him for not pm-ing back me and dropping such a big bomb all of a sudden. ToT

Ps: If you dont understand what the hell I am saying.. It is perfectly okay! (n.n)v
PPs: Maintaining 2 blog is totaly crazy....
PPPS: I am still editing that old story.. -.- More ideas! Give up on other half started story.
PPPPS: I am playing with my photoshop once again....
PPPPPS: 煽情、抽风是好东西！哇哈哈哈哈！

Going off.. Damn it is that late already..

2010-03-15T09:15:00.002+08:00

Busy Busy Busy with work for the past weeks. T.T

Anyway, met up with Super 4 for lunch twice this week. Once at Mos burger West Mall, the other at Xin Wang Taiwan Cafe at Bpp (Without laoda. Pangseh us at the last min!).
Really enjoy the time with them. Just talking crap, and our future. Keke!

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Complicated..
Friends... not that close.
Not friends... doesnt seems to be that way. Lols. ^.^

Rainy Day

2010-03-10T23:03:00.001+08:00

I love rainy day...
It make one feel emo. kekeke!

If U Leave.

2010-03-04T13:52:00.002+08:00

New song up at the blog.
Song Title: If U Leave
Singer: Musiq Soulchild Feat Mary J. Blige
Released November 25, 2008 (U.S.)
Genre Rhythm and blues, soul
Writer(s) I. Barias, C. Haggins, M. Jontel, J. Smith, T. Johnson, J. Lawson

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[Verse 1: (Musiq Soulchild)]
You think
Im so full of it, full of it
But I think Im just fed up baby
You think I can be so arrogant, arrogant
But Im just tryna get keep my head up baby
You think I procrastinate baby
But I think Im taking my time
You think you need to leave
But I think I disagree but

[Chorus: (Musiq Soulchild)]
If you believe youll do best without me
Ill let it go girl, Its over
But before we say good bye
Lets give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, Its over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out

[Verse 2: (Mary J Blige)]
Yeah
I think your so full of it, full of it
You just dont know when to let up, Baby
I think you're so arrogant, arrogant
But you think you're so much better baby
That I think It aint dealt before me to judge you by your flaws & thats why
No I could criticize, but I put that aside
To focus on you & I

[Chorus: (Mary J Blige)]
If you believe you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go boy, Its over
But before we say goodbye
Lets give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go boy, its over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out
Yeah

[Bridge: (Both)]
Now if you wanna go
Baby then I'll let you go
& even though Im tryna hold on
I cant let you go

& if youre gonna leave me, youre gonna miss me
& Im not saying that Ill be here waiting

Since we here right now (instead of just walking out)
Let's work to reach the point that I know we can be ?

[Chorus: (Both)]
But if you believe, you'll do best without me
Then I guess I'll let you go
Its over (its over)
If you wanna say goodbye
Lets give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll Let it go, its over
I have no doubt
That we can work it out

If you believe, you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, its over
Before we say goodbye
Lets give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave

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Chance upon this song while net surfing at a forum I went everyday. It was actually a cover by a guy who wanted to practice. Really like the way how they sing this song! Catchy enough to my liking. kekeke!

2010-03-01T00:32:00.003+08:00

你的愿望实现了吗？
只是一想到如此。。。心就有点点痛。

我只是一介凡人，
一个有着自私想法的女孩。
一个只想让你看到的女孩。
一个选择沉默以待的女孩。

2010-03-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

迟来的元宵祝福~
呵！
祝愿大家元宵团圆！

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Had the annual house visiting on sat 27 Feb. =)
Wonderful dinner by Yq and her mum! Thank You aunty!

At the very last of the event.. it was only the old four left, sitting at the table, chatting. Kinda trigger the old fond memories lock. Hah! Time really flies hur!
8 years down the road. =D

Pondering..

2010-02-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

Pondering should I get that Nana's B BB cream or not... Cost $22.50 of 60ml.
Hear that it is good... Dont know!

说不出口的爱。

2010-02-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

有些话，
想对你说，
却害怕伤到那原本就在滴血你的心。

有些话，
想对你说，
却害怕伤到那早已怦然心动我的心。

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有些话，
已对你说，
却带着惶恐不安的心按下发送按键。

有些话，
已对你说，
却只能深埋自己那说不出口的爱慕。

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有些话，
对你而言，
或许是种负担，
或许是种笑话。

我却心甘情愿。

Hair Trimmed

2010-02-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

After a year or so... The last hair cut was with XP.. =)
I finally went to trim my hair short, layered and make it thin.. =)
Can no longer stand the messy hair, and tangled hair every morning! Kekekeke!

la~la~lA~

I am a SEC SCH Girl too... In the past. + Song Update

2010-02-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tsk Tsk!!
I WAS ONCE A SEC SCH GIRL.... IN THE PAST THAT IS. =-=

Tsk Tsk... Why does this sounds so saddening!?

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Realise very long never change song liao.. So..
New Song up!

歌曲：苦茶
歌手：棒棒堂 ft 黑涩会
专辑：苦茶

微微笑的看你
越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真城
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种能可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道我也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一万分
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

这一刻只想把你抱紧

Damn. My heart is hurting...

Happy Birthday My dearest dearest Zor!

2010-02-07T22:48:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CASSANDRA!

Had a great time yesterday! Kekeke! Will blog about it maybe tomorrow. =)

Craziest Thing I had Ever Done.

2010-01-31T23:24:00.003+08:00

Today marks the day whereby I did tons of stuffs I had never imagined.
Went to Shinee's Autograph session at Lot 1 today..

Woke up early in the morning just to be there hoping to be the first 1000... but there are fans who camp overnight, when they are not supposed to do so. =-=

Despite it being a public/open event, only THOSE WITH PASSES aka. first 1000 fans, can enter roof garden to see them.

Wonder around Lot 1, and sitting just outside just to catch them on stage via a pathetic TV without speaker.

Tsk!! Wasted hours of times.. just to hear fangirls screaming and running around Lot 1... =-=

Despite all these problems... it was still an unique experience together with becky and rachel.

Learnt my lesson, and am going to camp overnight should I decide to go for such event again.

Ps: The album was selling at 60 bucks per copy.. =-= I think I can buy similar version of the CD on net with a cheaper price!

580th entry

2010-01-26T09:30:00.003+08:00

The 580th entry. =D

As I am looking through information about the Korean language -wiki happily-... (Slacking over at the office. Nothing else to do.)

I almost fainted!
There is 9 freaking parts for Korean speeches.! Just the verbs alone is enough to kill me. 4 different categories... T.T AND WHO SAY KOREAN AND JAPANESE CAN BE SELF LEARN?!

It is going to be a tough tough journey to learn Korean..

PS: I shall repeat the Korean language course details over here, despite me sending smses out to people who had expressed their interest earlier on...

KOREAN BASIC LANGUAGE COURSE OVER @ Cambridge Institute (JE).
Two classes to choose from:- Friday 7pm-9.30pm or Saturday 2pm-4.30pm
A total of 10 lessons with 1 lesson per week.
Course fees:- $320(alone) $290(2 or more pple registering together) *Material Included*
Course including: 90% of conversation in that language with the native korean teacher, basic korean lanaguage. =)
Classes tenatively to be starting in 20 Feb 2010.

INTERESTED PARTIES PLS CONTACT ME!!!
PS: I AM SUPER DETERMINED TO GO LEARN THIS LANGUAGE EVEN IF IT MEANS GOING ALONE.

2010-01-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

For those who are familiar with the Korean entertainment industry. Kekeke! Try playing. Had a hard time choosing

BoyBand：http://simsimhe.com/bbs/board.php?bo_table=test&wr_id=3821
GirlBand：http://simsimhe.com/bbs/board.php?bo_table=test&wr_id=3819

Wishing for a new hairstyle!

2010-01-16T23:39:00.004+08:00

As the Lunar New Year is approaching, I am thinking of getting myself a new hairstyle for this new year. Something wavy and curly? Thanks to zor who tempt me into doing it by perming her hair. =D

However, first thing first, I shall go and have a hair cut! My hair is way too long and the split end is getting a bit out of control. Not forgetting my fringe as well. (Have to trim it myself every now and then. Getting on my nerves.)

Second thing is to get some heat defense spray in order for me to protect my hair should I really use the curling iron. HoHoHo! And also hair moisturising spray

I hope my hair can turn out to be the two pictures below.:

Ps: Shouldn't be much problem since my hair is long enough! Kekeke! La~la~la~

Another round of Avatar!

2010-01-16T02:12:00.003+08:00

Went to watch Avatar again with mum just just now.
First time watching a movie twice in cinema.
Avatar had my twice first time.
First time watching a 3D movie with sh, shawn, baby and mj at Illuma. (Pictures coming up.)
Second - Watching the same movie twice. =D

However, it was totally worth it! Nice scene, nice plot!
Kek! I guess I am not that picky when it comes to movies, songs and dramas.

A little update on my life.:
Currently helping out at my dad's office. (It is more like slacking.. Hah!)
Got defeated by 6 pieces of Bank Statement yesterday. T.T (That feeling totally sucks! Even doing the troublesome GST is so more easier!)
I want to try out the salary counting! I think I will do better in that!

It is funny that I am doing accts stuff when I specialise in HR in the third year of my poly life. =Z

Driving Practical Test is nearing as well, and I have yet to master my parking. I hope I don't fail on that very first test! I want to get it and done with once and for all!

Korean Lesson: I really really want to master this language!!! Motivate me pls!

A little Chinese quote to share with all of you. I like this quote.
战则即战，
不战则守，
不守则退，
不退则降，
不降则死！”

2010-01-13T21:58:00.001+08:00

I am just soo soo lazy to blog! Lols!
Going back to my 2 days 1 Night!!! Oh man! 50% of viewing rate! kakaka!

阿桑 - 一直很安静

2010-01-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

Latest feature song:
一直很安静 by 阿桑. (仙剑奇侠传插曲）

空荡的街景想找个人放感情
做这种决定是寂寞与我为邻
我们的爱情像你路过的风景
一直在进行脚步却从来不会为我而停

**给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

你说爱像云要自在飘浮才美丽
我终於相信分手的理由时候很动听

Repeat **

给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回音

Repeat **

给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘份是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情

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Though I had never been a fan of her, but I really liked her songs and voice. From 叶子 to this particular song.

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Ganbatte for all those who are going back to sch tmr! =)
Will update again maybe tmr or the day after! kekeke!

Happy 2010 in Advance!!!

2009-12-31T21:28:00.003+08:00

Happy 2010 Everybody! =D

As I am going to M'sia from tomorrow till Sunday. So an early post! =D

All right. As they say, New year = New resolution.
As my friend was asking me what do I have for my new year resolution...

The answer is NONE!

Lols! Maybe not really none. 1 or 2 in mind I guess? Well, take a look back at my 2009 resolution then...

So 2009 Resolution:
1) To live everyday as it is the last.
2) To take things easily.
3) To treasure all I have now.
4) To brush up on my Japanese and hopefully my Korean as well
5) Erm... Courage still? =D

Hmmm. Didn't attained much. I really believe that setting New Year Resolution is to just pull your feelings down the next year when you review them! =D Hence I shall kept my 2010 New Year Resolution Short and Sweet!

2010 Resolution!
1) Go for KOREAN LANGUAGE COURSE! -Really hope I can achieve this!-
2) Cont' loving everyone that is dearest to me!
3) To con't taking things easy, looking at a diff. view, learning to give and take!

Hopefully I can achieve whatever I wanted.!
Ps: A year passed by so quickly...

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LASTLY!

2010년에는 여러분 모두 새해 복 많이 받으세요.

It meaans may everyone receive many blessings in the new year

21 Dec 2009 @ NUS and CarinHill Sakura

2009-12-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

Blogging about a Happy Event while listening to a sad emo song. How Great can the atmosphere be! Ohh! Just a side note. I am listening to Suju-KRY's Let Not Live. * Don't really wanted to touch much about SuJu now, when all the news are so heart-wrenching... *

Ps: Wait for the pictures to load. in .gif format, so the pictures will be changing. =) Lazy to upload picture by picture. Kekeke!

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Met up with Mj, Shawn and Xp for a trip down to the prata stall over at NUS on dear Mj's B-day. =D However,人算不如天算... The stall was closed for some staff gathering.. =.=. In the end, we made our way to NUS to settle our starving stomach. Had a mixed curry set *Japanese Food* for 4 bucks. Not too bad, big plate. =D Happy with the food definitely!
After the lunch, went back home to do some housework before heading over to Orchard for the B-day Celebration with the gang.
Oh, the other 3 were over at NUS, 2 to get their upgrade disk for win 7, 1 to return some stuff she kope accidentally from the kendo camp. Kkekeke!!

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Met up with becky over at Orchard MRT Station for she was afraid she lost her way to Paragon! I wonder when was the last time she step foot on to Orchard?!

Photos taken during the waiting time for everyone to be presented... =D Thanks for the presents! =D

Quite surprised to see him turning up.. cause I had no idea when was the last time I saw him... Lols!!!

The food we took for the 1st ROUND! Totally craziness. It was a total coincidence that the eaters were sitting together. Hah!

Food for the sub sequence rounds.

WE still took time to take pictures while eating! =D

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Sometimes it just got too boring with eating only... So Ta-Da!! The new version of SunKist Orange Advertisement!!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.... THE FINAL EPISODE OF THE DAY!

LOLS! Sorry if the pictures are changing too fast.

1박2일

2009-12-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

Watched the live broadcast for KBS Entertainment Award just now. Can't really understand what the speeches are except for the awards that are presenting!!

Happy that the variety show 1박2일 2 Days 1 Night that I had been watching won the best programme award! =D

One of the MC 李秀根 was presented the best Male MC of the award ceremony.

The best programme award goes to Happy Sunday, with 1박2일 as one of the segment!!
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Last but not least, Congrats to Kang Ho Dong for receiving the best artist award of the year!!! Happy Happy Happy!

Kekekeke. Was super nervous as I am watching the show. Plus updating all 1박2일 fans over at the forum whom couldnt watch the live broadcasting! Now looking foward to tomorrow's 1박2일!

2009-12-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

New Blogskin for the upcoming new year! =)
Will update once I come back from my cousin's engagement.

Happy Birthday To MySelf!

2009-12-19T00:04:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday!!! =)
Kekekek!
I am being lame!!

Had a wonderful day yesterday K-ing over at Jurong Safra. It was freaking cold.. =.=
Girls, we should go there and K someday!
Really love the atmosphere there!

Lunch and Dinner at CWP!

2009-12-18T00:47:00.002+08:00

Settled both my lunch and dinner over at CauseWay Point! =)
Had Seoul Garden as my lunch with Mj and Shawn. 5 hours str.! With chatting and eatting! Waha! Had fun in there, and managed to dig out something ^.^.

After which met up with the rest of super 4. Had dinner with them and received presents from them. Really love those presents alot. Thanks girls. =) Chatted and updated our lifes.. - partly. - Hah! Glad that school are still okay for them!

2 more days to my b-day~
K-ing with aunt, bro and cousin tmr over at Safra, Wohoo!!!
Ps: I am so freaking broke! Lols!

12.12.09 First Cooking Session

2009-12-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

Our very first cooking session over at Shawn's Place.
Missed the bus-stop with the girls as we made our way to his house.. Lost our way when we alighted the bus.. In the end, we spent about 1 hour from CCK Lot 1 to his place, when in fact if we alighted at the correct bus-stop, it will only take about 15 - 30 mins.

Had fun over there and some incident! Oh My! Broke shawn's mum micro-oven's bowl. So So So Sorry! In the end, that dish had to end up in the dust-bin for there are broken glass in there. (And I ate it... -> Spit it out though)

Really like a family gathering together just to cook and chit chat! Hah!

너무 너무 상해요 칭구데 (Ps: Very Broken Korean. Don't mind Don't mind. Becky, you understand!?)

And the day end off with a session of [Guess The Leg] Game

Pain... in the heart

2009-12-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

There is always this tingly pain I felt in my heart whenever I saw her name appearing on your blog.

Just like how you felt the pain when you mention her.

Just like a circle, going round and round, unable to find a way out.

Can't Bear To Say I Love You

2009-12-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Song:不能说爱你 Can't Bear To Say I Love You
Singer: 玉珠贤
Album: Cinderella Man OST (Cast: Yoona from SNSD)

어쩌다 내 가슴에 어쩌다
eo'jjeo'da' nae' ga'seum'e' eo'jjeo'da'
怎么办我的心怎么办
사랑을 알게 했니
sa'rang'eul' al'ge' haess'ni'
你让我懂了爱

얼마나 그 사랑이 얼마나
eol'ma'na' geu' sa'rang'i' eol'ma'na'
你可知道
힘든지 알고 있니
himdeun'ji' al'go' iss'ni'
这份爱让人心力交瘁

다가서고 싶어도
da'ga'seo'go' sip'eo'do'
想走近你
내겐 너무나 먼 사람인데
nae'gen' neo'mu'na' meon' sa'ram'in'de'
可对我来说你遥不可及
니가 그리울땐
ni'ga' geu'ri'ul'ddaen'
想你的时候
보고플땐
bo'go'peul'ddaen'
想见你的时候
나 혼자 어떻게해
na' hon'ja' eo'ddeoh'ge'hae'
我一个人怎么办

Chorus
나의 슬픈 눈을 한번 바라봐
na'yi' seul'peun' nun'eul' han'beon' ba'ra'bwa'
看看我悲伤的眼神吧
깊은 한숨소릴 들어봐
gip'eun' han'sum'so'ril' deul'eo'bwa'
倾听我深碎的叹息声
사랑한단말 못해
sa'rang'han'dan'mal' mos'hae'
不敢说我爱你
차마 말 못해
ca'ma' mal' mos'hae'
不敢说爱你的我
울고있잖아
ul'go'iss'janh'a'
在哭泣

Chorus
그저 바라보는것만으로도
geu'jeo' ba'ra'bo'neun'geos'man'eu'ro'do'
只是那样看着
눈물나게 좋은 사랑
nun'mul'na'ge' joh'eun' sa'rang'
让人哭泣的美丽爱情
미안해 너를 욕심내서
mi'an'hae' neo'reul' yog'sim'nae'seo'
对不起对你太贪心
몰래 사랑해서 ..
mol'rae' sa'rang'hae'seo' ..
悄悄地爱上你

언제쯤 대체
eon'je'jjeum' dae'ce'
什么时候
나는 언제쯤
na'neun' eon'je'jjeum'
到底是什么时候
너에게 보이겠니
neo'e'ge' bo'i'gess'ni'
才会让你知道
어쩌면
eojjeomyeon
怎么办
그렇게도 어쩌면
geureohgedo eojjeomyeon
那样又能怎么办
내 맘을 몰라주니
nae' mam'eul' mol'ra'ju'ni'
你不懂我的心

돌아서고 싶어도
dol'a'seo'go' sip'eo'do'
想走近你
잊혀지지않을 사람인데
ij'hyeo'ji'ji'anh'eul' sa'ram'in'de'
令我难以忘怀的你
너를 향한 내마음
neo'reul' hyang'han' nae'ma'eum'
这颗爱你的心
아픈 내맘
a'peun' nae'mam'
悲伤的心
이제는 어떻게해
i'je'neun' eo'ddeoh'ge'hae'
现在该怎么办

Chorus

내곁에서 너무 멀리가지마
nae'gyeot'e'seo' neo'mu' meol'ri'ga'ji'ma'
不要远离我的身边
지금보다 멀리 있지마
ji'geum'bo'da' meol'ri' iss'ji'ma'
不要离开得比现在还远
사랑안해도 좋아
sa'rang'an'hae'do' joh'a'
即使不爱也好
그래도 좋아
geu'rae'do' joh'a'
即使那样也好
곁에 있다면
gyeot'e' iss'da'myeon'
在我身旁的话

내가 바라볼 수 있는 그 곳에
nae'ga' ba'ra'bol' su' iss'neun' geu' gos'e'
在我可以看到你的地方
늘 그대로 있기만해
neul' geu'dae'ro' iss'gi'man'hae'
那样就好
모르게 혼자 바라볼게
mo'reu'ge' hon'ja' ba'ra'bol'ge'
默默的守护你
나만 사랑할게 . . .
na'man' sa'rang'hal'ge
只有我一个人去爱

Photoshop & IR. Being too bored! Lols!

2009-12-05T00:30:00.004+08:00

Made one for Ms HuiHui.

2009-12-01T00:58:00.002+08:00

学会放弃绑锁在自己身上沉重的枷锁。
兴许我们能活得更快了一些。 =）
就如同一片白云在蓝蓝旷阔的天空里飘荡着。

我想，我必须学会如何轻轻的拿起，再轻轻地放下。

Notice Notice!

2009-11-27T00:38:00.001+08:00

I will be AWAY from SINGAPORE FROM
TOMORROW ONWARDS! WILL BE BACK ON SATURDAY NIGHT! =D

Cross Stitch

2009-11-26T16:44:00.001+08:00

Finally sat down and do the cross stitch for my cousin... (Owe her 1 as present)

Labour of product after like 10 days!?

FINAL PRODUCT

4 days after!
Boy I was super happy when I am done with it la!!!! =D

98 Degrees - My Everything

2009-11-25T23:57:00.002+08:00

Honestly, since young I hadn't been a great fan of any english songs. (Be it pop or country or whatever other genre.) Maybe just a few HIT songs every now and then. Haha! But ever since I knew Mr. Wee, I learn to appreciate english songs more. =D
Hohoho! ENough of those long old story.
This week's blog song.

My Everything by 98 Degrees, Released November 6, 2000 written by
Writer(s) A. Bagge, A. Birgisson, J. Jeffre, Nick Lachey

(A very very old song I must say. But the thing is... I only heard this song recently, sang by Xiah JunSu from DBSK. Lols! )

My Everything
The loneliness of nights alone
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope has seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shines from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
A kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Oh
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete for all time
For all time

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
Down on bended knees
That you will always be
My everything, oh my everything

Hope your enjoy it! =)

2009-11-18T15:38:00.002+08:00

To learn to treasure something, you have to lose it first.
To learn to love someone, you have to be hurt by other first.

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Entering the 8th lesson of driving.. but up till now still need tons of polishing.. Hah! Car will still tend to JERK HARD. >.<
Oh My!
Pray hard I will be able to get the liscense by CNY!!! WAHAHAHAH!

a little something

2009-11-15T17:18:00.002+08:00

Tried out something over the weekend using photoshop and of course with the help of the website missyuan
Really like this website, tons of methods and ways for your to create beautiful stuff via Photoshop. Only down point will be it is in chinese... and I at times unable to figure out what they were saying! >.<

It wasn't really very fantastic. So don't mind!
The finalise photo (First Photo) VS The original photo (Second Photo)

will be back for a more formal update later on! Ta-Da!

迟来的一封回复信

2009-11-06T14:34:00.002+08:00

这个礼拜都忙着与打扫，整理我那乱得跟猪圈有得比的房间。
其实整理房间也挺好玩的。
看着房间慢慢的变干净，变整齐就有种成就感。无奈东西真的太多了，整理到差点发疯。呵呵呵！

整理的过程，我发现一封4、5年前一位友人写给我的信。
记不起来读完的当下是否有回复她。呵呵~ 我是老人，记不起来是正常的。=D
现在倒回来看只觉得我们那时真的很傻很傻。
严格说起来，那时的我们都太嫩了。

读着信上的一字一句，我笑了。
笑的是，当时为何无法潇洒一点的放手。
笑的是，当时为何认定他们的快乐是建筑于我们的痛苦之上。。。 >.<

现在时过境迁，很多事情都变了。
所以这位友人，我想我能大声地和你说，
对于“他们”或者“他”其实感情的因素已经越来越淡，剩下的只是那一抹牵挂。
依旧执着的牵挂。

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当然回味的事件不止那么一封信。
还有好多好多，读着、看着都会让我想哭。。。。
美好的回忆。。。无限播映。

爱相随

2009-11-06T14:10:00.003+08:00

周华健的《爱相随》
这首歌听了很多年，中间也曾经忘了这首歌。
直到最近听到电视节目的播放又在一次从新回味着。
不单单只是喜欢它的旋律，更是喜欢被唱出来的歌词。
有一种说不出的似曾相识。
更为贴切的说法就是发生在身边朋友的身上。

听着听着，脑海里闪过一位友人的名字。
真的觉得里头的歌词很适合他现在的心情写照。
所以朋友看清楚读仔细咯！希望你能明白。=）
忘了说这位友人和我有着同一个姓。呵！

爱相随 - 周华健

别想你忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心有些事也要过去
心很痛痛的不想再做我自己
别回头情已去缘已尽

* 很想你也不是因为失去你
爱了你用尽我全心全力
一生情只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒

** 人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情你给了谁

Repeat *

人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么有路可退
我如何面对

Repeat **

Let's Go on Vacation (Song)

2009-10-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

As I grow older, I realise, everyday is a new journey for me.
I step out the first step, and the rest of the step just follow in...
Though sometimes tiring, sometimes sickening, sometimes disheartening.
But I learn to find happiness within such situation.

What about you?
Have you started your very own journey?

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A follow up to the previous entry. =D
This song is from the company SM Entertainment. Sang by all the singers the company have.
Lee Seung Gi (Member from 2 days 1 night) sang it too... But I prefer this version! More lively! hah!
Enjoy!!

LET'S GO ON VACATION TOGETHER!

JaeJoong
푸른 언덕에
Pureun eondeoke
在翠绿的小山坡上

BoA
베낭을 메고
Benangeul mego
背着背包

SiWon
황금빛 태양
Hwanggeumbich taeyang
发出金光的太阳

Dana
축제를 여는
Chokjereul yeoneun
展开了庆典

Micky
광야를 향해서 계곡을 향해서
Gwangyareul hyanghaeseo gegokeul hyanghaeseo
向着旷野向着溪谷

DongHae
먼동이 뜨는
Meondongi tteuneun
东方的太阳冉冉升起了

YunHo
이른 아침에
Ireun achime
在清晨出现

Lina
도시에 소음
Dosie soeum
都市里的噪音

SungMin
수 많은 사람
Su mahneun saram
无数的人

Kangta
빌딩 숲속을 벗어 나봐요
Birding supsokeul beoseo nabwayo
都试着逃离这喧嚣的高楼大厦

All (Chorus)
메아리 소리가 들려오는 게곡 속에 흐르는 물 찮아
Meari soriga deulryuhoneun gegok soke heureuneun mul chanja
在萦绕着回声的山谷里去寻找那流淌的溪水
그곳으로 여행을 떠나요
geugoseuro yeohaengeul tteonayo
我们去那里旅行吧

Repeat Chorus

ChangMin & Sunday/ KangIn & HeeBon*
굽이 또 굽이 깊은 산중에
Gubi tto gubie gipeun sanjunge
在回旋绕转的高山间

LeeTeuk & Stephanie/ KangIn & HeeBon*
시원한 바람 나를 반기네
Siwonhan baram nareul bangi ne
凉爽的清风欢快的来迎接我

JunSu & Ri-In/ RyeoWook & HyunJin **
하늘을 보며 노래 부르세
Haneureul bomyeo norae bureuhse
仰望天空我们一起高歌吧

Repeat Chorus

EunHyuk
쵀 쵀 쵀!가방을 벗어 유 유!여행을 떠나
Check! Check! Check Gabangeul beoseo YO! YO! Yeohaengeul tteona
Check! Check! Check扔掉行囊 yo yo!去旅行吧

ShinDong
어디로? 산으로? 바다로? 강으로? 어어 어디를 갈까
Eodiro? Saneuro? Badaro! Gangeuro! UH! UH! Uh eodireul galka
去哪里？去山里？去海边？去湖边？哪里哪里去哪里？

EunHyuk
소리지를 준비됐다 제대로 한번 달려보자
Sorijireul junbidwassda jedaeroh hanbeon dalryuhboja
准备大声喊叫吧尽情地奔跑一次

Shin Dong & EunHyuk
one two three and four
一~二~三和四

Repeat *

Repeat **

Repeat Chorus

JaeJoong
내가 꿈꾸었던 곳에 그대 손을 잡고 걸어요
Naega kkumkkueossdeon gose geudae soneul jabgo georeyo
我梦见在那个地方我牵着你的手一起走

BoA
이제는 떠나요 여름 그 곳으로
Ijeneun tteonayo yeoreum geu goseuro
现在就出发朝着夏天的那个地方

All
여행을 떠나요 즐거음 마음으로
Yeohaengeul tteonayo (Gaja gaja yeo heng dduh na)
Jeulgeoeum maeumeuro (A ssah a ssah shin nan da)
带着愉快的心情去旅行吧
모두 함께 떠나요
Modu hamkke tteonayo (Okay)
全都一起去

Repeat Chorus

Let's Go on Vacation!!!

2009-10-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

Instead of going on a Vacation with the gang.. We went Marina Barrage on Sat, 24.10.2009.
Picnic was the initial and finally decision we had for the Oct. outing.
Too bad quite a number was unable to make it, due to academic commitment.

Had real fun over there. We were like some 'pabo' sitting right in the middle of the open space top with the scorching sun shining right on us!! The other people that were there were happily eating under the shade.. =.=""
Oh! There was this uncle who took a picture of us! Hah! I guess he must be wondering what the heck were we doing... =)

Anyway, Our conclusion were, if the weather is WINDY, the sun don't seems to be as hot...
The final product of the 2 hours picnic... SUNBURN!! YESH! TOTALLY BURNT!! My arms were totally red.... like lobster! The redness only manage to fade off a bit until today.. and my tutee was totally in shock when she saw me yesterday. ^^;
Even my grandma was saying... WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR ARMS!?

Haha! Hopefully this time round the tanned part will stay and not peel off like in the past. =D
Ps: Face started peeling liao la.. =.="""

The main purpose of this entry.. is because miss huihui asked when am I going to update~~ So Ta-Dah!!! Pps: Photos going to be up. This few days have been busy.. =D

2009-10-22T00:15:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. As I am looking through the names for my link.. I am wondering.. When did I changed MJ's name to ErikuMaryJane???
Shit... STM man!

Random Moments

2009-10-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

Some new pictures..

Some months ago during the meet up with part of the gang to T1. -NOT TERMINAL 1- =D

3 months ago during missy yl's 21st birthday party.

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Went prawning with bro and his friend the other day - 14.10.09 to be exact-
Had fun! Will post up the photos like soon.. =)

__happiness__