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Sunday, January 28, 2007

This story is from other people, which I got from the so-call forum.. It is a boy love story aka gay story. So for those who dont like Boy Love story, pls dont read... It is not something sexual okie! I just like the story line. Touching. The main character is Tony Sun and Sam Wong from 5566.. So pls, if you dont like them, go away.. Dont make any unecessary comments. It is rather long.. So enjoy. - I doubt anyone will read -

忘记时间的钟
其实从某些方面来说王绍伟要比孙协志更适合做一个领导者，他更有决断力及长久的规划感，而更重要的是他更舍得放弃，并且不那么追求完美，只要他愿意放弃撒娇、偷懒以及天性的贪玩……
于是渐渐的，乔家上下的师弟妹们开始习惯叫他大师兄，孙协志这个名字被谨慎的回避掉，在王绍伟的生活中消失的干净，只有孙老总在一场大病之后心神偶尔恍惚，会对着埋头看企划的绍伟叫协志，所有人都惊得手底生汗，只有绍伟平静的点头，神色如常。

183仍然长红，5566是综艺旗舰，另有各式鲜活面孔涌现，乔杰立已经在整个亚洲地区开设分号。
而对于王绍伟，一年有两张专辑、两场演唱会、两张原声带、两本戏剧。
一个人的时间有多少深度，果真是潜力无限。他仍有余暇可以打棒球，辛勤练习成绩斐然。

然而同时，王绍伟日见沉默，招牌的撒娇动作已经许久不用。
一日制作单位摆乌龙，宣传、化妆齐齐出错，明道在后台发飚，绍伟忽然走上前去看牢他，不发一言，明道顿时噤声。
他已学得孙协志的十成气势，更添一分沉静，于是无人可挡。

如今5566的声音只剩下一种，舞台效果自然也差了很多，可就算是求好心切如王仁甫，细辨绍伟的神色也不敢多抱怨什么。
其实当灯光暗下，三个人的舞台亦不算十分空旷，倒是有一回唱《存在》，唱到一半时绍伟竟忘记接口，怔怔得在台上失神，仁甫生性机灵，顿过一下又接回去唱，圆得天衣无缝。

事后仁甫与孟哲两个不知道要怎样处理，推推诿诿的走进化妆间，却看到绍伟正专心的听一只表，侧着头，脸上露出孩子似的笑容。
王仁甫顿时胸口如遭重击，连呼吸都转不过来，黑了一张脸跑出去，找到一个角落，失声痛哭；孟哲缓缓的走过去，长长叹息。
第二天早上，又看到绍伟神色如常，面带微笑的同所有人打招呼，这一页就此揭过，无人再提。

一日一日的，仁甫有时觉得他们已经失去了王绍伟，那样欢乐的笑容，倒在你的肩头撒娇，笑得全身都在抖。可是定睛看去分明又是那个英挺的男子，仍会大笑，笑容里有隐约可辨的羞涩，在大小屏幕上演出公子、王子与浪子，所有让女人心动的角色。
仁甫于是摇一摇头，迷惘了。

新专辑，又是满档的通告，不过此时5566已是综艺界的前辈，各方都相当给面子，十分好混。
录完一档节目，出来的时候是阴天，彼此都累了，沉默着向保姆车走去。
从斜刺里冲出来一个少女，年纪尚幼，身量却很大。在人群中看定了绍伟，冲过去一把扯住他，指甲全嵌进肉里去，嘴里呼喝着：“是你害死了他，都是你，害死了他，把我的协志还给我……”
众人都吓得愣住，总算王仁甫第一个反应过来，这场面在最初的时候他也见过几次，当时绍伟人在北美休养，消息瞒得他水泄不通。

只是那女生力气惊人，情急之下他竟扯不开，正在纠缠着，无意中抬头，竟看到绍伟双目如血，忽然反手握住她的肩吼道：“都是他，是他害死了王绍伟，你知不知道？把王绍伟还给我……”
那疯女被吓得即时清醒过来，惊声尖叫，拼命挣扎；绍伟却不放过她，连指骨都捏得发白。
真真闹得不可开交，一大帮子人赶过来才将他们两个分开。
“都过去这么久了，怎么还有看不开的，这年头歌迷还真是疯狂！”一个工作人员摇头感慨。
仁甫看他一眼，苦笑着：看不开的，又何止她一个。

回到车上才发现绍伟整个人都呆滞掉，孟哲陪在旁边急得满头油汗，仁甫小心翼翼的上去问，绍伟却只答了他两个字：回家。
仁甫忽然间想起，他已经很久没有去过绍伟家了。

房间里光线很暗，窗子上都挂了厚厚的帆布。绍伟只当他们是透明，自顾自去洗澡，换衣服，然躺到床上睡觉。
仁甫与孟哲两个从卧室里退出来，相对无言，却猛然发现满墙的公仔，一共三幅，铺天盖地。
仁甫心里突的一跳，扑到DVD机旁的架子上去看，竟是满满当当日韩的鬼片。登时，只觉全身的血液倒流，手足冰凉；回过头去看孟哲，这孩子的脸色差到极点，满满的惊惶，口里喃喃道：“这不是绍伟的房间，这是协志的，这里住的人是协志……”

当年的故事，因为绍伟沉默的缘故，是由多方的片断猜想拼凑起来的。
那是一次暑期的特别节目，本想说台湾的山再险能有多险，况且还有教练和全套的设备，而且有些事就是那样奇突，那条路之前多少人走过都没有事，偏偏到孙协志时，整块泥石都松动滑脱。绍伟离他最近，只有他来得及去拉一把，只可惜他们两个体重原本相当，他没拉住，反被协志带了下去。

正是清晨时分，雾气极重，众人在惊叫声中只看到绍伟在半空将协志抱在怀中一路滚下……
天气不好，直升机上不了天，众人在悬崖下面搜救，声声呼喊，都听不到回应。
两日后在一道断崖前找到尸体，是协志，贴身的口袋里放了一幅布，上面的写着：往上去，在一条溪的旁边，绍伟在哪里，他伤很重，快去救他。
救援队在断崖的上面发现了协志向下攀爬的痕迹，顺着往上去，找到已经奄奄一息的王绍伟。

当时从山上摔下来，绍伟护在外围，手脚都有骨折，血流不止，痛极休克。
协志的伤要轻得多，于是安顿好绍伟，一个人单枪匹马的往山下闯……
这样铁血冷漠的年代，已经少见这种肝胆的故事，更何况主角本都是明星，更添几分传奇色彩，舆论一至性的倒向，肃然起敬。

仁甫从往事中惊醒，茫然四顾，天已经黑透，孟哲到底年轻，已经倒在沙发上睡着了。他悄悄起身，轻轻推开卧室房间，却发现里面灯火通明，绍伟坐在床头，全神贯注的在听着一只表，侧着头，脸上有隐约的笑意。
仁甫在他身前蹲下，泪盈于睫！

“绍伟，不要这样子，跟我去看心理医生好不好，协志已经走了，他看到你这样子也会不高兴。”
“我很好！”绍伟笑得极轻柔，脸上有梦幻般的幸福神色：“协志也很好，我在听他的话做，他会高兴。”
“可是他不会回来了，你再怀念也没有用！”王仁甫泣不成声。
“我没有在怀念啊！”绍伟急切的握他的手，拉他去看：“他没有走，他一直都在……”

这房间有一种气息，极简的严谨，属于孙协志的气息，仁甫闭上眼深深呼吸，眼泪却掉下来。
“他一直都在这里，住在这里，看他喜欢的电影，听他喜欢的音乐……”王绍伟声音飘渺，如梦呓，用左手抚摸右手的表面，像是在抚摸爱人……
而那只表的指针，竟是停住的！
王仁甫忽然想起，当年协志落崖的时候，这支表也随着一起跌坏了，当年绍伟在美国休养，吵着要它，拿到手，就一直压在枕头底下。
仁甫的视线全部模糊，像看到那天从山谷里涌上来的雾气又弥漫开。

这支表，它忘了时间，停在主人离开的那一瞬间。于是又有一个人，日日凝视这个瞬间，再不管时光流逝。

他一直都在，他从未离开！
王绍伟凝视光洁的表盘，忽而微笑起来。一天有24个小时，他一面做孙协志，一面做王绍伟，爱他，被爱，彼此相爱……

* * * *
那天夜里，雾气很重，虫叫得很凶！
孙协志心惊胆战的，熬过人生中最漫长的黑夜，而怀中的人呼吸越来越缓。
满身都是粘腻的血，与泥土混在一起，间或有极细微的呻吟，但也渐渐听不到了，于是咬咬牙！
他饿了一天一夜，足踝扭伤，脚步蹒跚，走出几步又折回去，在绍伟耳边轻声道：“如我出事了，请努力活下去，拜托，替我活下去……

12:27 AM sprinklinq love Y

Friday, January 26, 2007

Guys, this is a notice to everyone..
I will be having my exam on the first two weeks of FEB until 16 FEb which is my last paper.
My first paper will start on 5th FEB.
So within this period...try not to jio me out for outing... As for the IJC open house, I will try to make it.. 10 FEB as I have an exam on that day itself.. which will be ending at around 11am. So, I will confirm with your again. Then the ticket..I have help your booked two.. so the price divide it among yourself. haha

Cassandra's b-day is coming in a week time.. Pls remember to get her present.. haha.Then, she wanted a "surprise" on the day itself.. 6th Feb, a tuesday.. So discuss among then tell me how your wanna go about doing it.. I will try to cooperate.

Lastly, for the chinese new year house visiting.. I propose we go on the Sat, which is 24th FEB... Is that all right with all of you? If not, pls inform me early.. I wanna settle everything before chinese new year comes. ^^

yep that's all... Keep me update~

1:52 PM sprinklinq love Y

Thursday, January 25, 2007

(sa)天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着

(g)可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的

(sa)我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

(sa)爱情是模糊的
可怜的是
没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者

(sa)当爱情陷在危险边缘

(g)是否都会伤痕累累

(合)是否都会苦不堪言

(合)爱情教会我们都放不下

This song fits my feeling..
I wanna love him, but I know I cannot..
Hiding it may be the best solution, but I know one day, things will get worse.
Backing out may seems the best, but.. can I do it?
After him... 1 year has passed.. within this year, concern for the other him increase... I dont know.. you can call me 花心. I know I am, but who knows, perhaps, in the very beginning, I have already fallen for him, just that I deny the fact, I escape from it. It is because of someone else I guess.
A long long time has passed since I have so 赤裸裸的 face my inner self. It is getting confusing. 我搞不懂，我们到底怎么了。。。我想不通
After the new year.. I am going to sort out my feeling for him... I am going to do so..

11:36 PM sprinklinq love Y

This entry is dedicated to WEE SHI HAO!!!
He has been pestering me for it..
How did we know each other de? Erm.. through choir I suppose..Cant really remember, 5 years le.. not too long and not too short~ but perhaps just enough to forget about stuff like this. I am old..
Well.. Knowing him is so... This guy, not too bad.. Good enough to be a friend, a good friend, a buddy.
He is someone not too bad.. a person you can crap with, show your true self to.. Just that sometimes, he like to pinch you.. bite you.. (-_-|||) Dont know why he like to do this. Oh ya, not to mention his wu shu and quarrelling skill is good...
Anyway, really happy that I got to know him. Enjoy his company!! haha
Shi hao.. happy? Lol...

1:21 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Was watching Spirited Away yesterday night. Was boardcast on Channel U. I like the show.. Not matter how many times I have watch it, I will still be so touch.. While showing the credit.. There was this song " ALways with Me" Very nice.. It's music is quite saddening.. But nevertheless, it was still nice.!
The lyrics:
a)日文原曲

Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Okude
Itsumo Kokoro Odoru Yume wo Mitai
Kanashimi wa Kazoekirenai kedo
Sono Mukou de Kitto Anata ni Aeru
Kurikaesu Ayamachi no Sonotabi Hito wa
Tada Aoi Sora no Aosa wo Shiru
Hateshinaku Michi wa Tsuzuite Mieru keredo
Kono Ryoute wa Hikari wo Dakeru
Sayonara no Toki no Shizukana Mune
Zero ni Naru Karada ga Mimi wo Sumaseru
Ikiteiru Fushigi Sinde Iku Fusigi
Hana mo Kaze mo Machi mo Minna Onaji

Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Oku de
Itsumo Nando demo Yume wo Egakou
Kanashimi no Kazu wo Iitsukusu yori
Onaji Kuchibiru de Sotto Utaou
Tojiteiku Omoide no Sono Naka ni Itsumo
Wasure takunai Sasayaki wo Kiku
Konagona ni Kudakareta Kagami no Ue nimo
Atarashii Keshiki ga Utsusareru
Hajimari no Asa Shizuka na Mado
Zero ni Naru Karada Mitasarete Yuke
Umi no Kanata niwa Mou Sagasanai
Kagayaku Mono wa Itsumo Koko ni
Watashi no Naka ni Mitsukerareta Kara

b)中文譯詞

我心深處有聲音在呼喚
時常想做個教人心靈躍動的夢
縱有數不盡的悲傷
我確信能在那方遇上你
反覆犯了過錯的旅客
最少也看見過青空的蔚藍
即使前路茫茫無盡
我的雙手仍懷抱著光明
告別的時候，靜下來的心
歸於無有的身體，叫耳朵細聽
生存的奇妙，死亡的不可思議
花與風與城市，都同一樣　

我心深處有聲音在呼喚
時常不斷在繪畫夢想
縱有說不清的悲傷
以同一張嘴巴溫柔地歌唱
在即將消失的回憶中
聽到不能忘懷的微聲細語
在破碎的鏡子上
反照出新景象
最初的清晨，寧靜的窗
歸於無有的身體，不斷被充實
不再探求海的另一方
因為光輝早就在這裡
在我裡面找到了

c)英文譯詞

Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart
So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you
Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time
Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light
As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity

Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part
Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you
The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you
When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around
Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn
No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me
I've found a brightness, it's always with me

2:02 AM sprinklinq love Y

Thursday, January 18, 2007

我是谁？
我是想翱翔整片天的风筝
我是想要进入无边无际大海的金鱼

我很想
很想一切美好事物变成永久
永久地将他们保存在我生命里
但生命确在流水中

我努力
努力地死守一切
一切却随着时光远去

好远好远
欲追但已追不回

猜猜看
我是谁？
Credit: Shi Hao.
我很喜欢他写的。很特别。。。仔细的去读，你会发现每段里都有相同的地方。。那些都是无法成真的。。。有那么一丝丝的感伤。是啊，人生的道路上有许多我们无法预料的事。。。我们总是在很紧急的情况下做出了选择。没有想过到最后会发生什么事。即使最终知道了也是太迟了，不是吗？

也许就是这样，爱情总是在错的时间降临在对的两个人。。可是因为时间的关系，他们最终无法在一起。悲哀吗？是啊。。。可是我们却不能做些什么。我们只能任由它发生。人类即使在聪明，说穿了也在很多地方无能为力。

你明白吗？无奈。。。 - 这就是答案。 -

11:59 PM sprinklinq love Y

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Things had gotten out of hand within three days.. Three Days!! Can you imagine that?! This prove that if someone is really determine to get what she wanted, she can do it in a very short time huh?! Hmm.. Anyway, what over is over like what old man say.. there is nothing we can do now.. just hope that her mum wont restricted her from going out with us... >.<

Seriously, I dont know anyone else other than the gang is reading this.. And I know that, as a friend i shouldnt say things like this.. But I really cannot bear with it anymore... This is something not very nice... So pls... if you read the first sentence and feel very angry or feel that I shouldnt have bother about it, LEFT! If not dont finish reading and tag me with " Oh, dont bother about your friend stuff when you couldnt even handle your own stuff." Pls Left! And if you dont the 来龙去脉.. pls dont comment as well.. It will only make me piss off...

Not because I am their friend so I am saying this.. There are a lot of things which we cannot stop. Such as falling in love... It is not surprising at all that we teenagers at this age fall in love. True, as a parent, as someone senior, your believe that we are still young, we shouldnt get too close with this drug known as LOVE.. You are not wrong.. but, seriously, if you told us that we are still young, we should focus on study and move on... I don't believe that you at our age didnt fall in love!! 将心比心 pls.. If you are telling me now that they being together is affecting their study life, I have nothing to say if you break the both of them up... cause it is realy for their own good.. But now what?! You break them up because he is a flirt! OMG!! I know you are afraid that she will be hurt, but.. this is her choice isnt it?! If she really do get hurt in the end, she will have to bear with the consequence... Instead, you are here to stop them.. What good will you get?! She will only hate you... Sometimes, I just dont understand.. you claim that by doing so it is for her own good.. So can you tell me.. Or pin-point to me what and where is the good?! I just dont understand. Sorry for being so 肤浅.

That's all... I dont wanna say anymore.. I am just so upset by what has happen...

10:01 PM sprinklinq love Y

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Two weeks had passed.. = I have start my Semster 2 term 2 for two weeks le.. So what had I done within this two weeks? Cramp with both presentation, proposal, tests and new project! >.<|||. Just this week, I have to complete two tests and two presentation, which includes a skit.. OMG! It was such a busy week for me.. everyday lesson until 3plus.. lecture lecture lecture... Study for test.. etc etc. Need to catch up with friend, do my own stuff.. AAHH!! Life is getting harder and harder by now...
Cry.. hopefully, I will have a better week next week. hehehe

12:13 AM sprinklinq love Y

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

I don't know if it is my wrong thinking or what.. But.. Sometimes, if you don't wish to take the first step.. no one is there to wait... When you have taken the first step.. the rest of the step will follow.. this goes to the same for friendship. I am not trying to say that the circle of our friendship is very big. 11 people is not that big afterall. But sometime, it is really beyond our control that we have favourites... - not arrowing to anyone pls. - I mean not really favourites, but maybe we have common topic and stuff like that.. that's why. We are not trying to outcast you or anything..

Sometimes, when I stop doing everything and relax.. you guys will just appear in my mind.. I know.. by now I should have already settle down, and to get use to this idea.. But it is diffcult.. To be frank, up till now, I still can't really get use to the idea that I couldn't see your/meet your like before. Four years of meeting each other everyday. Four year, every morning after waking up, your will be the one I will be seeing.. Till evening.. It is just so hard that I am now facing a whole new bunch of stranger face... >.<..

Hais.. time flies... and I don't know what is my future..

10:11 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I cant believe how suay I am lorx!!
The very first day of 2007.. My hamster went missing.. And I suspect it is the doing of the damn stray cat!
The second day of 2007... Erm.. Nothing really happen...
The third day of 2007... Sch reopen and My friend sis say she dont want tution.. >.<. This means I am out of job!!
The forth Day of 2007... I trip and fall.. = injured my knee!!!
The fifth day of 2007... I am sick... Down with a cough and sore throat...
The sixth day of 2007 - today -... Cough and sore throat turn even worse despite me drinking all those honey... And now.. I am having a minor runny nose... >.<||||

Can someone explain to me what is happening!?? Guess I need to go and bai bai le... AAHH!!

1:08 AM sprinklinq love Y

I know.. I didnt blog like for dont know who many days... Gomensai!!! >.<.. So after 1/1/2 days after the chalet, My family, together with my two cousin and their aunite, cum my grandpa, we went to genting!! Whee~~~

Day 1:23/12/06

My little cousin.. Ting Ting

Their auntie..

Us on the car towards genting~

Ting Ting's brother... Han Wei.

Well, We drive for 4 hrs before stopping and stuff... Reach Genting by 4pm?! And check in norx... ^^ For the very first day, we settle the dinner ourself... Mac.. Easy and fast! Hahaha... Then went to the Arcard to play and resting time~~

Day 2: 24/12/06
We went to this Dim Sum Restuarant...and had our breakfast there.

The place name..

Eaten up Dim Sum

Prawn Dumpling?! I forgt

Yummy!! Dont believe?! Look @ my mum!

As christmas was around the corner... you can see christmas almost everywhere lorx..

White christmas... Hmmm... A little bald lorx

This lady here.. she is fake de larx!!! But if you are walking near her, look really close to her eyes.. it is as if her eyes is following you... =p

We went to play this Machine...

And this is our prize!!!

Went to play the ticket machine and exchange this for Ting Ting... Kawaii~

This is my dinner... So nice!!

Us inside the hotel room resting..

This two was taken @ first world plaza... Countdown party over there... super high!!!

Day 3: 25/12/06
Went back to S'pore...

Proudly present to you.. My breakfast..Yong Tau Foo cum Chee Chong Fan... Lol

Brother wanton mee.

The morning view of Genting... Nice~

Your shld know... That period of time, johor was flooded... THis few pix was taken when we drive pass through to Johor... >.<. Just look @ how muddy the water is!

Crab.. from a not so good view..

crab shell... with the egg!! OMG!

The duck...

This is how Genting Asumement Park look like In the morning:

This is how Genting Asumemet Park Look like in the night:

Well... This ends my genting tripp... The pictures say it all.. Lol

12:34 AM sprinklinq love Y

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

A new year has started... This is my last year new year resoultion.. So let's see what I have completed so far.. ^^

1. Stop all those lame action... * very diffcult * - not cleared. -
2. Stop being so irritating... - not yet cleared -
3. Be more Zu Guan... Dont always follow what friends doing... - urm.... -
4. Stop being a Idiot.. - (-_-|||)
5. Learn Japanese!! * xp... you can jio me ya? * - Nope -
6. Learn guitar... - Nope -
7. Read more English STORYBOOKS!!!!!!!! * gonna force myself to do so. * - Cleared -
8. Read more CHINESE STORYBOOKS!!!!!!!! - cleared -
9. Write more story... - cleared.. if you consider 2 and a half story many -
10. More Ideas for story? - cleared -
11. More creative! * hehehe * - Cleared -
12. Complete my task punctually... - Cleared -
13. Save more money - Half way done.. -
Lol.. Seems to me lots of my target not hit eh?! Lol.. Nvm. Forget abt it.. New Year, New Start, New Target! Hopefully, I am able to cleared all of them! ^^

2007 Target:
1) To cope with my tedious studies.. and Pass with @ least a AD
2) To help my student to get an A1 for her O lvl e-math
3) To get rid of my slacking mood
4) To stop thinking of him... - (-_-|||)
5) Learn Japanese!!
6) Learn guitar...
7) Catch up with the gang
8) Read more CHINESE Story
9) To make my unique earring.
10) Save money
11) To spend my time wisely
12) To complete my whole list of Drama/Anime on you-tube... Lol

Well... Pretty simple ehX?! haha.. I will do it de!! Gambatte to myself! ^^

9:42 PM sprinklinq love Y

WEnt to watch Deathnote 2 The last name yesterday!!!of course together with my darling friends... Whee~
They came over to my hse for mahjong and PS2 before proceeding to West Mall for the movie. =) Happy~~

Anyway, the ending for the deathnote... Erm.. Let just say, I dont quite like the ending.. somehow, it is stupid.. >.<|||... But overall it is a nice show!! I like how "L" Solve all those things.!!! So li hai.. Impress by him man! Their IQ is so damn high can?! Can plot until like that.. zzz..

Hm... Dont know if i should go and watch Deathnote manga a not.. Lolx!!!

3:28 PM sprinklinq love Y